I don't know what to do? :(?!
Question: I don't know what to do? :(?
omg okay I am upset with myself. I have some problems with my thinking. I hate myself. I know hate is a strong word but its one that keeps popping up in my head. I hate my life, I hate my teacher, I hate this. And honestly I am pissed off that I keep saying to myself that I hate my life. Cause honestly I live in a good country and a good family. I don't really get picked on. I have friends. But I can't help but to hate myself. Maybe its not myself but there is something in my life that is really bothering me. Maybe its the fact that I am not the most social guy. I don't start too many conversations with people outside my group of friends.
Now this is going to sound like I am ungrateful and self centered but what sometimes triggers this is this girl. Its not her fault at all. She's honestly just a good friend. But I thought she liked me or likes me because she was really flirty last semester and her friend told me I should ask her out this semester. But we don't really see each other and she is moving on. Look it is probably my fault for not going for her when I had the chance but now things she does just triggers feeling for me. Today she literally went to sit next to me. Put her bags down. I started talking to her and she moved to sit somewhere else. And the thing is, is that I am actually terrible with this kind of stuff. I am 15 and never had a girlfriend which isn't a big deal really cause most kids at my school don't. But the problem is that I start obsessing which is ridiculous. For some reason my life becomes about making the girl I like laugh and seeing if she likes me. Even if its obvious that she does.
So yea I went on for a long time about girls which is dumb but I thought I might as well say what ever I am thinking. Thanks to anybody who reads this.
Now this is going to sound like I am ungrateful and self centered but what sometimes triggers this is this girl. Its not her fault at all. She's honestly just a good friend. But I thought she liked me or likes me because she was really flirty last semester and her friend told me I should ask her out this semester. But we don't really see each other and she is moving on. Look it is probably my fault for not going for her when I had the chance but now things she does just triggers feeling for me. Today she literally went to sit next to me. Put her bags down. I started talking to her and she moved to sit somewhere else. And the thing is, is that I am actually terrible with this kind of stuff. I am 15 and never had a girlfriend which isn't a big deal really cause most kids at my school don't. But the problem is that I start obsessing which is ridiculous. For some reason my life becomes about making the girl I like laugh and seeing if she likes me. Even if its obvious that she does.
So yea I went on for a long time about girls which is dumb but I thought I might as well say what ever I am thinking. Thanks to anybody who reads this.
Answers:
dont worry be happy...