Im scared that i might develop an eating disorder?!
Question: Im scared that i might develop an eating disorder?
I compare my arms, legs, and stomach to other peoples and if im not skinnier then its all i can think about.
I look in the mirror and im afraid i might be seeing this, http://www.flickr.com/photos/58738896@N06/5473013930/
(not to that extreme though)
or maybe i really am just fat.
I am a size 1 sometimes 3, 110 pound 5' 3"
I hate that Im 110 i want to be 100 i would love to be 95.
I think i have a serious problem and i have considered to stop eating before and i have done it, but i start to feel guilty and i start to eat again. what should i do?
Answers:
You need to seek help before this gets any further.
I'm suffering with anorexia at the moment for the second time. It is NOT nice. I HAVE to force myself to eat. I cry because I hate the way I am, I hate my weight. Looking at myself makes me feel physically sick. I enjoy not eating, or skipping meals. Eating makes me heave. I've tried to force myself to throw up, put my hands to the back of my throat. I constantly check my weight, I've already lost weight and actually applauded myself because of it, yet I still feel heavily overweight.
Because of this, I'm suffering with depression. I become angry at those who I love, I'm breaking up my relationship steadily. I make my boyfriend CRY because of the way I am. I often cry myself to sleep at night. I feel alone.
Do you really want this life? If you carry on, you'll end up the same. STOP. You know what? Your PERFECT the way you are. We all have different body shapes, all have our faults and all have our strengths. Now be strong, and stop this. Would you truly like to see your family watch you slowly kill yourself inside out?
Seriously, your perfect the way you are. You still have so much time ahead of you, if you want to lose weight, do it the RIGHT way. Eat a healthy diet and exercise a correct amount. You know what your doing is wrong, it's a start. You subconsciously know what your doing is wrong, otherwise why would you feel guilty and start eating again? Be sensible. Do it the right way. You are 1 in a million. You are PERFECT the way you are.. just stop and think, seek help and get the support you need to stop.
Good luck.
You should go to the Dr. Hope you get better and wish you the best:)
Body dysmorphic disorder
Definition
By Mayo Clinic staff
Body dysmorphic disorder is a type of chronic mental illness in which you can't stop thinking about a flaw with your appearance — a flaw that is either minor or imagined. But to you, your appearance seems so shameful that you don't want to be seen by anyone. Body dysmorphic disorder has sometimes been called "imagined ugliness."
When you have body dysmorphic disorder, you intensely obsess over your appearance and body image, often for many hours a day. You may seek out numerous cosmetic procedures to try to "fix" your perceived flaws, but never will be satisfied. Body dysmorphic disorder is also known as dysmorphophobia, the fear of having a deformity.
Treatment of body dysmorphic disorder may include medication and cognitive behavioral therapy.
http://www.mayoclinic.com/health/body-dy…