Should I kill myself?!

NO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

NEVER give up
NEVER surrender

Get Angry if it Helps

And Flush the Pills ... Now
Someone WILL find them

darling, every1 deserves 2 live a full life. no matter how bad it seems, suicide isnt the awnser. its a permanite solution to a temporary problem. and there is no reason 2 b ashamed totell your counselor, they are there to halp and many people have the same issues you are having. just throw away the pills and try 2 stay healthy and productive. surround urself w/ ppl who love and care about u. whrite back and tell me if this helps and how ur doing :)

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first of all, i am sorry you feel so depressed.
it sounds like you have had a lot of progress lately though- dont give up on that.
i also suffer from depression, but i got a lot of help out of counseling and medication. talk to your therapist. open up. once you do i think you will start to feel a lot better.

think of something you love- a person, a place, anything. dont let that go.

Try it, start taking a few of those 300 pills and see if you still feel like going for it, my guess is no, as you've decided to ask on the internet, are you just stalling? Just see what happens.

If you want help try: 08457 90 90 90
http://www.maytree.org.uk/
http://www.samaritans.org/

You need to be honest with your therapist.
Every question you ask, you state that you can't tell your therapist. If you can't be honest with your therapist, you are wasting everyones time.
Either be completely honest, or find another therapist.
No one ever said life was easy...

No. You need to take steps to improving your life not giving up. I would say the first step is surrounding yourself with people who arent mean to you. Maybe if you opened up more to your family so they know how serious this is they would be more sympathetic.

Please don't kill yourself, your beautiful. Life is beautiful, do you really want to lose it? Talk to your therapist, they'll help you so much:')

I promise you_it will soon be over, don't. Just look at yourself again, think about tommorrow not today.

Everybody experience it even me once.

Exhaust every other possibility first.

Just do whatever you fell like doing.

I know exactly how you're feeling; I know how severely alone you feel, how hurt and how broken you feel. I understand that not self-harming heightens those feelings, and eating right breaks you even more, but you have to keep going.

When you're laying there, dreaming about simply getting up and swallowing those pills... stop. Don't think about how peaceful you may feel, how good oblivion might be, think of your family. Think of your friends.

Look in the mirror and image your mother, or father, or your best friend walking in your room and finding you dead, cold. You'd break their hears, your'd hurt them so much.

... and I honest to God understand you, but you just can't. It's not your right to take yourself away from the people who love you.

... me.

I can identify as at times if not all the time I feel like what's the point? Things would be better off if I weren't around.

I have gone through it, but it obviously didn't work as I'm still here (I couldn't even get that right).

My depression consumes me, I've made a video diary documenting my downs and its for my eyes only. however when I'm feeling down I turn it on and watch my previous doc...

Now as to what you should do, I or no one can answer apart from you, but asking for help/ advice is a start...

DO NOT KILL yourself. suicide is not the answer. take it from someone that has tried 4 times in their life. if you can't be totally open and honest with your counselor then you need to find a different counselor to talk to. in order for one to help you you have to be able to talk to them about any and everything and i do mean EVERYTHING. that is the only way. believe me they have heard it all. i see a psychologist for talk therapist and i have had to tell him about some rather bad things in my life. really horrible things. but in talking to him about incest, abuse by my adopted parents, beatings, and other worse things he has helped me with them. he is helping me learn how to deal with them. and is teaching me coping skills that i never learned as a child. i have never felt in any way like he has or is judging me. he is there to help and help is what he is doing. please tell your counselor what is going on and that you are considering suicide. yes, you will probably wind up in the hospital for a little while but that is better than a coffin.

personal experience.