If you ever lost a parent: do you think that parent would of been proud or disap!

It is honestly a struggle but just keep doing the best you can. We all make mistakes and regret what we have done because we are only human. Your dad would be very proud of you and I think he would understand your mistakes and he would still love you no matter what. I understand how you feel though because I lost my mother 4 years ago and there has been times when I have felt like she'd be disappointed in me but I know she'd still love me anyway.

Be the best person you can be. Be kind and walk with love in your heart. You are made up half of him so he lives in you, what you feel about yourself is what he feels from heaven, and if you don't believe that there is a heaven well the half of you that is him wil be proud from the inside out. Just do your best, doesn't matter if you don't always achieve your goals but he knows that when you have done your best it is spiritually developmental. That is what is important, not how much money you have, not how good you are at sport, not how clever but what IS important is how many people have been better for having known you.

You never stop feeling that way, my Mom's been gone for over 40 years now and I'm sure I've done things that made her roll in the grave. Don't worry about it, he'd probably be happy that you have survived this day and age and that you still care what he thinks.