Therapist told my mom about my suicidal thoughts and l feel scared now because s!
Question: Therapist told my mom about my suicidal thoughts and l feel scared now because she knows now?
This is the first time meeting my new therapist l met a few days ago. She asked me a question if l ever thought suicide and l had to be honest and l told her yes. l told her l dont want to live sometimes and l dont mind death. l told her l tried to kill myself once by drinking bleach. She tried to call to check up on me but l was taking a shower and didn't hear the call and l thinks it too late to call her. l will tomorrow, she is concerned about me and told my mom that. my mom called me a while ago and she told l shouldn't and not supposed say to my therapist that l dont want to live. l told my mom l had to go because l was panicking. part of me feels like she didnt really care or believe it and that she is just concerned of having a daughter that isn't "normal". but lm scared my therapist told her that l almost drank bleach. l dont know how my mom would react. she probably wont take it seriously or be mad at me for telling my therapist terrible things. but l am seriously depressed because of bullying and my ugly appearance, l dont want my mom to know. do therapists tell the reason why to your parents? would she tell my mom l was bullied by a lot of people from school and on the streets because of my appearance?that's the main reason why lm suicidal, lm way too sensitive and l get hurt easily by others, its hard living life being rejected by everyone especially school. school made me crazy and worthless. which is why l have poor attendance and grades. l feel embarrassed that my mom would know this stuff, l dont know if she either going to be angry, scared, shocked, at me or maybe not care or wont take it seriously. lm nervous to see her tomorrow. what should l do? should l not mention it? should l just be honest with her? would the therapist tell my mom everything l said to her?
Answers:
This is probably in your best interest. Since your mom knows, she's more likely to ask you why and be sensitive. Parents dont want to do anything to make it worse because they're afraid that you may commit suicide and they would never want that to happen. I'm questioning why your therapist told your mom. If you're under 18, then I understand because it's protocol. but If you're above 18 they should tell another mental health care professional or a cop or hospital who can keep round care on you. someone else mentioned that you may want inpatient.... the stats show that people who are willing to admit they've been suicidal are AT THE LEAST RISK because you were brave enough to tell. If you think in patient is for you, great, but just talking to the therapist is a GREAT step in the right direction.
All that aside, don't worry. You can explain to your mom. If you're overweight or you have acne or something such as that and it's the reason people pick on you, chances are you got your genes from your mom or dad or someone in your family who understand. You can always be open with your parents... sometimes they don't get it, othertimes they dont want to talk about it, but when it comes down to your life and your moms "baby" being hurt at school---shes going to want to talk./ Its natural for women to want to talk. If your mom doesn't get it, and you have no friends, and therapy just isn't doing it for you, maybe you can look into some online communities. It's always best to be honest, and never lie, but at least online you dont have to share personal information such as weight, appearance, etc. It sucks that this has happened to you.
I've always been blessed to never truly have to suffer for more than the piercings I have in my face, but you sound like more than anything you just need to talk. Keep talking to your therapist. I bet if she told your mom you were suicidal, she most likely didnt say why. It's doctor patient confidentiality. She's supposed to tell your suicidal but more than that she cannot say so it's up to you to explain to your mom. The therapist may elude to things but chances are if she's following her practice she didn't explain anything more to your mom than the fact that you are suicidal and that it would be best if the two of you talked. Don't worry. Your therapist most likely also told your mom how to talk to you and how important it is to stay calm and not to judge. Talk to her and let us know how it goes!
Dont worry or be scared. You sound like you might need some inpatient therapy dont be worried though because its not bad its better for you to get help then to do something harmful to yourself. I recomend just ignoring people that bully you they are people who have low self esteem and pick on other people to make themselves feel better. I was bullied for a long time and i though i was never going to find friends you will soon realize that as you get older people mature and you will find good friends so just dont hurt yourself and put your family through that pain.
Everything you discuss with your doctor (therapist) is confidential and cannot (by law) be discussed with anybody else (not even your parents). The law may differ from state to state if you are under aged (younger than twelve, I believe), but even then, the therapist will discuss this with you beforehand.
Either way, an openhearted discussion about your problems with your parents may be just what you need. It helped me tremendously, and I went on to be quite happy in life.
I haven't been in therapy nor do I know a whole heck of a lot about it but I'm pretty sure your therapist can't tell EVERYTHING you said to your mom. Obviously if you say you have been having suicidal thoughts she is obligated to tell your mother. Don't be nervous. If your mother truly cares about you she will help you through this bump in the road. Don't mention it. Just see what happens. ~Take care. :)