I think I may have borderline personality disorder?!
Question: I think I may have borderline personality disorder?
Answers:
First off, to answer your main question, no your not crazy. Trust me, we all go through things like this at some point or time in our life. Everyone has thought about these things. I think what you need to do is take everything one step at a time. Don't look at the big picture, that's actually a mistake. It can make things seem even more impossible. Look at things as tiny goals, in time limits such as a few days or a week, NOT months or a year. Slow things down a bit and just think of what you want to accomplish this week. And by accomplish I mean, turning your life around. Now the next question is, what do YOU want to change? Do you want to feel more healthy and active about yourself? Start eating an apple every day, start bringing water and thinking, do I -really- need that coke? No. It takes up to a month to change habits. You could be feeling depressed because of something physically, and yes, mentally. The brain is so complex and amazing. If you feel depressed, tell yourself, NO I am NOT depressed. Take me for example. I have anxiety problems. I'm afraid of getting sick around people, and something happening to me. So what do I do when I feel sick? I tell myself that I'm not, because in reality, I'm NOT sick. It's my mind telling me I am after one bad incident many years ago. I -push- through it and MAKE myself believe that I am fine, because I really am. And I know, it's easier said than done, but it CAN be done. What I think you need to do is to take up a passion. Mine is horse back riding. It keeps me fit, forces me to be outdoors, and not a hermit in my room, and I meet more people like me. Ask yourself, what do you LOVE to do! What makes your heart sing? Is it cars? Then study them, make that your life! Do you love to draw? Practice for hours on end and make others jealous of your talent. Don't worry about relationships. If you find someone you love, then go with the flow of things, don't worry about losing them or something. It all happens. If you need someone to talk to, feel free to contact me :]
I think you should go to phycologist instead of asking on here
Godd luck :)
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