Mental Health and circumstances?!
Question: Mental Health and circumstances?
Im in a situation that is becoming worse by the day. Ive been "labelled" depressed a few years ago. Its the bi product of some other kind of undiagnosed condition. No meds have helped.
Ive just lost my job for medical reasons. Work was the only thing that ever got me out of the house. Now I have no income, rent is due and I have no work or prospect of getting any. On top of that Im massively in debt and my expenses are overwhelming. So Im on the last few days before the crunch and I dont know what to do. Options are limited.
Now that aside Im also very unhappy. I can barely leave the house. I am not eating as much as I should and Im just so sick of life. I really think death would be like a holiday. But I cant suicide cos that voice inside me says no. But what is there to live for? Im gonna be homeless and broke in the space of 2 weeks and there is nothing I can do about it. I cant work cos I have a broken foot. My mental health is borderline suicidal. Ive owned a gas tank for months that I bought specifically for suicide. Ive had it sitting in the house for months. Thats pretty messed up hey? The problem is no one knows (or cares) how bad I am. If I tell anyone they would either lose respect for me or make a bigger deal of it without helping the situation. Been there before. Its either guilt or embarrassment but here I am again looking at the question of what is there to live for. I have tried several AD's and none do anything except side effects. I was seeing a psychologist at one stage but she decided to cancel my appointments and wont answer me anymore. She says she cant help me. Ive got no friends, Family are on the other side of the country and for years Ive been living a lonely existence. On the surface I probably appear a bit depressed but people think Im either a loser or just dont care. Its a dog eat dog world but I just want some company for a change. But none of that matters now cos soon Ill be homeless and broke. Ill be begging for money and I cant do that. Id rather die than live that way.
Is this how the world works? Is this the way its meant to be?
I dont know what anyone here can offer me but thanks for reading my story. How does it turn in the next few weeks is the question. Ive real and truly exhausted all options. Now I can hear fireworks outside and people cheering. I hope there is a better life than this somewhere. Its not here.
Answers:
I really don't know what to say except good luck? I'd suggest you take whats left of your money and fly yourself to see your family and just stay with them, stay with them until you're on your feet again. Trust me, if you hang in there, you'll find that that in the end, life was worth living. Also when you get back with your family, I want you to eat more, and eat healthy ( 5 servings of fruits and 5 servings of veggies a day) and exercise (jog at least a mile everyday) Trust me, it'll make a difference. Then once you've gained your health, I want you to go to a nice grassy spot (assuming you're not allergic to grass) and just lay down and stare into the sky, do it for an hour. Now I want you to go meet someone, a girl preferably. That way you can begin to learn about them and find out what you want and don't want out of them. Then I want you to meet a bunch more. Since you'll now know what you want out of a girl, it'll be easier to notice when the right girl comes your way. And eventually you will find someone to share your life with.
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thanks.
Hey,
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Hello, I used to work for a project called Wellbeing Through Work which currently deal with people in Wales, and although you have already lost your job I'm sure they can signpost you elsewhere for advice. contact Remploy, i hope things look up for you.
used to work for a project called Wellbeing Through work
Start a house cleaning business. For the price of a bucket, pine sol and windex you can earn 15 an hour.
Visit Beauty Salons and put up posters. Wash Windows, clean gutters, do something and stop with the self pity
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