Is it bad that I'm thinking of suicide again?!

Yes it is very bad you are thinking about suicide! Since you are on here asking this question I am going to assume that subconciously you do not really want to die. This of your family and how it would make them feel to lose you, if there are problems you are dealing wit there is ALWAYS a way to work things out. Death is not the answer, it is only your time to go when God feels it is. You should talk to a friend, family member or a therapist or even go on the website or suicide hotline and talk about your thoughts or feelings. You didnt state if you are currently on anti depressents but maybe that is something you should talk to your doctor about and consider doing. These are not normal thoughts to have on such a regular bases so please get help and do not hurt yourself. Like I said, there is always a way to work out whatever problems or situation you currently are dealing with.

You really should get help again, nobody here is qualified to answer your question,

no you shouldn't you shouldn't decide to die god will when he needs you in heaven

You should ask yourself, why do you keep wanting to do this?
You are young and I'm pretty sure there are many things out there you haven't enjoyed yet, so why would you want to quit? I know sometimes life gets tough and depressing, but believe me, there is always something to look forward to.

You should sit and talk to someone. If a psych doesn't help, maybe a friend or family or anyone really. Talking is a great way to vent out all the bitterness and frustration. You could even talk to some of us online if you feel like it.

Trust me, living life is so much better no matter how crazy it gets. I know it sounds like I'm preaching and I don't even know what bothers you so much, but just take my word for it.

Just talk to someone!

Simply by asking this question you are telling yourself and others that you really don't want to do this and that is a good thing. Life can be hard, specially when you are a teenager because your personality is still developing, but ending it is never a solution. Quite the opposite: it is a permanent problem.
You should consider seeking help again. Medication or any other type of therapy is not a dependence but a route to Independence. Millions found themselves in the same situation you are know and managed to change things for the better with the help of others.
And life, with all it's problems, is most certainly worth living. Just ask some of the old folks you know what they got from being here.

Suicide is the WORST thing you can do to yourself. Think about what you are doing, think about your family, your friends. They will all miss you.
It's a sad thing to hear that someone I don't even know is considering of killing themselves. Go to a psychiatrist again since it made you feel better, that's the best thing to do get better. Remember people care about you, they want you to feel better, you want to feel better even if you don't feel like it. You shouldn't be seeking infromation from the internet, you can get some in-correct information.
Go to a psychiatrist, trust me. Suicide is not a joke, suicide is the cowards way out of life. Your not a coward. I can tell your a strong person, you just have to believe you are yourself. Erase the thought of killing yourself.

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life is like a roller-coaster, it has it's ups and downs. It seems like your life has been plummeting straight down into nothingness. I know what that's like because i was like you before and I just recently got rid of my suicidal thoughts. I was always feeling suicidal and I attempted suicide twice. I was a cutter too. Life isn't easy but trust me, it is worth it. suicide is never the answer because you're just eliminating yourself from this world. you won't get a second chance, so don't make that mistake. Over time, I realized that no one could change me but myself. I had to want to change. If I was always going to think I can't ever do anything right, then I wouldn't ever. I had to change the way I thought and looked at life at a different perspective. Counseling has never helped me and it won't always help. sometimes it helps people but it never helped me. I would suggest that you talk to a close friend that you really can trust. Tell them what you're feeling and see if they can give you any helpful advice. however not everyone can give decent advice. it's sort of hard to find people like that. don't get your hopes down if the first person can't help you. try to seek advice from someone else. it may seem like it's horrible to go through all of this but after this over you'll be a stronger person. I'm sorry this is so long. I hope you feel better :))

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