My family has brainwashed me?!

Psychological abuse is more damaging that any physical abuse. Get out now, you can do it. They want you to be losers like them. They realize you are much more than they will ever be so they are trying to destroy you. Leave now, go wherever you can. You can provide for yourself I came from a somewhat similar situation and I am doing well in college and have a good job that gives me the money I need until I graduate. You need to get out NOW!
My email is open if you want to talk.

First of all, I am so sorry it happend to you, you in no way deserve it.
I think the best thing to do is find a close friend who is willing to take you in, get a job and help pay rent. Save up as much money as possible until you can truly move away from all of it.
Hope that helps.

There is no escape. You will rot. You will lose. You will lose everything. And then, when you're finally on the verge of breaking, when you realize that your world can't get any worse, when you wish that you could just end all of it...you'll die.

Wow. That's not brainwashing, honey. That's abuse.

if you're a child you need to get help from someone outside of your family that you trust.

If it's not bad to be brainwashed by there ideas then don't worry about it.

Call family services get outta there ASAP

Hun, I totally feel you. I was in that situation myself (Not really including the rest of that awful stuff. For me it was all mostly my mother who was physically/emotionally/mentally abusive, and dad was to much-much lesser degrees. But my mom just really tore me down. I have no feelings for her whatsoever and no real interest in there ever being any.) up until a year ago and I hear you. It is so freaking scary because, for years, you were told that you just weren't ever going to get anywhere. My dad would always (And still does it to my sister to this day.) say that I wasn't ready, etc, to be on my own. Just, things like that, and it just gets to the point where you KNOW that that's how things are, and will always be. It is brainwashing and cripples the adult in you that wants to be an individual.

Are you still in high school? College? Where are you at this point in your life? Most importantly, do you have at least enough to get you away from them?

Let me tell you, I was in the military for a few years, so was able to save up some $. To shorten the story, I left the military and went home as I really just didn't know what to do with myself (Honestly, I mostly joined the military because my dad told me I should. I never felt that I'd be able to go the college route, anyway.), spent 4 years there, miserable and hating life. Just, hating it and not caring about anything. Gah, I won't get into the way things went.

I left home to visit another country for a concert...and never came back, basically. This all happened a little more than a year ago. Wasn't really planned - it's just how this has gone for me. It's hard because I''ve not got a job, so I am essentially living off of the savings I have (Not to mention I've got some health/emotional/etc problems that are keeping me from really seeking a job in earnest.), paying sososo much for rent and all of that. It's insane and disheartening, but you know, you have to have FAITH. Lie to yourself if you have to, just don't ever give up! Don't give up on yourself. You have to prove to YOU and THEM, that you are super duper strong, and that you are gonna make it, despite the trash they've fed you for all of those years.

Speak to an adult you can trust. A counselor or something. Reach out to someone, because you really just don't want to give them any more of you. You need to get away from that toxic environment because it will just eff you up on so many levels. Find a way out. You can do it. x