Why is it impossible for me to be happy?!
Question: Why is it impossible for me to be happy?
-I hate the way I look. (I used to be fat, and have had acne since forever)
-I'm not passionate about anything. The only reason I'm even studying in university is so that in case my husband dies and I need to provide for myself (I just want to be a housewife and do nothing otherwise)
-I feel like there's nothing to look forward to in life other than the death+ after life.
-I feel like I've failed as a daughter, as I'm ALWAYS moody around my parents.
-I always avoid hanging out with my friends, and thus have failed as a friend.
-I try to worship and pray to God as much as possible, but still commit sins here and there so I've failed in that aspect too.
-I just want to cry all the time, stay in my room alone, or just sleep.
What's wrong with me? There hasn't been any major incident that should have me feeling this way, but as far as I can remember I've always felt like this.
Answers:
So you're going to school in case you're husband dies? I thought you had a boyfriend?! hmm...
You're depressed for an unknown reason but I think you dont have much going on on your life like you feel unfulfilled. I suggest you find a hobby or volunteer. People who dont do anything are depressed and it can cause health problems. For example, senior citizens who arent active die faster than those who are active. So get out, and do something you enjoy. You cant be depressed when you're too busy doing what makes you happy.
Take me for example, I have no friends and recently broke up with my girlfriend and my family and I rarely talk. But I work 10 hours a day, six days a week and I volunteer at an animal shelter. I'm super active and I'm really happy. So get out and kick ***!
You seem depressed, if no major event caused this then it is likely a chemical imbalance. Get to a doctor, get on some pills and you will feel better than you ever did. Especially considering that you're family and friends situation is fairly normal.
Could be clinical depression, you may want to talk to a doctor about it..