Worried about alcohol problems?!
Question: Worried about alcohol problems?
Answers:
It's 9am and I've already had one Guinness, about to crack open another. Mmmm. So maybe advice from me can't exactly be valid but...
Maybe checking yourself into the Priory or another similar rehab centre will do magic.
If you can't afford that there are always free AA meeting in every town ever built and you'll be able to build a strong support group from the people you meet there.
Just remember you're not alone and the way you're feeling is textbook, there are people out there going through exactly the same thing and meeting them at AA meetings will really build your confidence and know that it's not just you experiencing this.
You could also try looking for a psychotherapist in your local area. It may take a few months to get to the root of things, but I have heard good things.
Um, Stop drinking.
Talk to a psychiatrist.
Move closer to town.
headache
A rehab center would be ideal, but not everyone can afford that. Why do you want to quit drinking? You need to motivate yourself to throw out the booze. If you feel it is from trauma, get yourself into treatment/ counseling. A good first step would be attending an Alcoholic Anonymous meeting. They will be able to help you find the resources you need. It is easy to make good friends there too. Ones that will support your sobriety.
I have lived with an alcoholic.
From what little I have gleaned from your question, it seems likely that your problems could have stemmed from family problems. Regardless of that, the fact that you first were drunk at the age of 9 is very worrisome (and look, this is not coming from a teetotaler-- I drink more than I should but I definitely was not drunk any time near the age of 9-- and that is not judgment, just disbelief at the idea of a drunk nine year old!). I would really encourage you to talk to someone...a school counselor, a friends, relative other than your dad, anyone. Talking to us online is better than nothing, but I think you need more.