I have nothing to live for and want to kill myself?!

It sounds like you're having a tough time, but you shouldn't let it upset you this way. Believe me, there are millions of other people that have the same problem with their parents as you do. Some have it much worse. And its important to persevere through these tough times. Reach out to those who can help you with problems you may have. Teachers, relatives, school counselors, etc. I used to have problems with anxiety and flashbacks real similar to what you described that my counselor helped me overcome back when i was in high school. I know how it feels and it sucks sometimes but you just gotta push through it and not let that stuff get you down. Your parents may be overbearing, and all people have their flaws, but you shouldn't let you stop realizing what a beautiful person you are, inside and out. We all have rough patches throughout life. But in the end we come out stronger and wiser. Pray to God to give you strength and courage. He will provide it for you. Keep doing the things you enjoy and growing as a person. We all grow, little by little (and some like me are a little bit slower at it lol), and its important to keep your head up. Take a deep breath every once in a while, thats a technique that helps calm my nerves sometimes. I wish you the best, and am glad you reach out for help. try talking to a counselor or teacher to help you deal with these issues and keep your head up. God bless from a fellow yahooer.

Your Friend,
Sam

talk to someone over the phone. forget about being perfect for your parents their are obviously not worth it and when you grow up u can meet a girl f/ boy f and have a happier life without them F**K them get ur grades and go ur separate way trying o make life a cheerier as possible. stop cutting yourself will it help NO ur just making things worse for yourself even if it don't feel like it, give yourself a makeover and show people what ur worth.

Has it occurred to you to seek proper help?

Life does not have to be like that, but if you want it to change, you are the only one who can take steps to start that change.

I have a similar problem like that with my dad and stepmom. They are very abusive. I used to be a Christian but because of peer pressure, I turned away... It was soon after that when life really picked up for me, I started my own belief which, is Probs. crazy. It works though. I believe that all this horrible stuff in my life is happening for a reason. And that it is there to help me, I look at as, if I can get through this day, then I'm just that little bit stronger than everyone around me who has no idea what I'm even going through. And when your stronger mentally, you can succeed more, because you can handle things that they would fall apart over. You are the one at the end of the day who can look at not getting a job interview ( hypothetical) and think, Eh, there's worse things that could happen.
Don't give up yet.
And just a little heads up,
Your friends are obviously not very good friends if they wouldn't even miss you.
Try finding some better friends,
But don't outright reject the ones you have,
If you can't find someone,
You will still have someone rather than no one.