Im 15 and i need some1 to tell me if its bipolar, ive been like this forever. Iv!
Question: Im 15 and i need some1 to tell me if its bipolar, ive been like this forever. Ive had enough and i want help!?
So i know every teen is going to say they are 'devo' and every teen is going to have ups and downs... but this is different. I'll start explaining now...
When my parents split, i went through an extremely bad case of depression. Every day for over a year i cried, felt sick for no reason, needed to sleep ALL the time, self harmed, at school i was so upset i didnt talk at all (all my friends were shocked when i started speaking again), it ruined friendships and me and my mum havent hugged each other since, and i tried ti kill myself a number of times. I have also started bringing alcohol to school on my bad days, it helps me get through the day...
When i got out of this, of course i was changed, but i didnt think anything of it. I just thought the same as everyone else did, just a bad case of depr.
But i started noticing things not long after... The hype side of me before i was depr was back. And this isnt just normal happiness, im talking about not being able to stop talking and rapidly fast, my friends have had to slow me down, switching from one topic to another fast, thoughts running thru my head, and AT NIGHT! Holy shiat at night, sometimes my thoughts are going sooo fast i cant slow them down, and i toss and turn because i cant turn off the voice in my head! it annoys me to the max, i KNOW i need to sleep but it is physically impossible for me. Another thing that happens is i have impulses and urges, i could randomly be walking past something and feel the urge to knock something over (say a plastic cup or something) and of course, i do it. I also do really reckless things, but i CANT help it!
but the problem started 2 years ago, when after the depr, i started mood swinging between the two. now i think to myself that maybe it WASNT just depression, it was something else. When i say mood swings, i mean as in, a couple of weeks extremely happy, a couple of the opposite, and then a few DAYS happy then depr. And i get confused at this bit, but sometimes they mix together. For example, if one of my friends tells a joke, i will laugh HYSTERICALLY, then all of a sudden i will burst into tears and someone will have to sit me down and talk to me.
and as a kid, i was ALWAYS in one of my 'happy moods'. in primary school, i was constantly in trouble for not being able to control my laughter, doing reckless things, etc... everyone just thought i was a happy kid, but even then i would think to myself: why am i like this? people tell me they think there's something wrong with me :( but a couple of times when i was little i had bad moments too, and i mean, i think twice, when i was about 6 or 7 i tried to kill myself.
WHAT IS THIS!???
and if it is anything, how do i tell my mum? we hate each other :(
but please help me i dont know what to do anymore and i just want to die please help me.
and thank you soooo much for reading this! xxx
Answers:
oh my ];
dont worry, just calm down :]
if you try to remember how you were before, normal and happy, then maybe you'll remember.
remember what you did when somethng happened.
how did you react to things before?
insomnia is really bad.. ];
and i think it really is bipolarness, and you should see the doctor. :o
just let youre mom this; theres no way your mom hates you enough tat shed let you die.
so tell her, and shed care of course. if she doesnt believe you, then ask a friend's mom to take you.
dont die, ok? ]; i know right now is painful. please, bear with it!
do you know how many peopled be in pain if you died?
also, never resort to drugs too :O just letting you know ;]
i hope you knew that already though :p
get well!
i hope you do see the doctors!
Say what? Go depression?? Turn to your physician without delay
Depression runs in cycles.. you have up days and low days.
I really think you should talk with your mother, maybe she would be relieved to know that you are not talking because of what is going on for you i.e. mental health type symptoms.
there is bipolar I and bipolar II disorder, so you should investigate whether you have either of these, and this is assuming you are not abusing substances, which can also make people like this. Bipolar can be effectively controlled with medication. Given the impacts your symptoms are having on your life, i would really see a doctor.
Yes, you do sound like me (I am bipolar) not exactly like me, but enough that you may have one of the basic types of bipolar (I think there are 5). If you cannot talk to your mom then talk you your school counselor or another authority figure who can get you referred to a psychiatrist. The only thing they can do about bipolar is put you on medication. Then you need to see a therapist and talk things out.