Suicide my thoughts on it before i do it, whats your opinion?!

the dose you have worked out will definetly take you out. sounds like you do have the right to blame them, they should be murdered. go ahead and do it, but whatever you do, DON'T GET CAUGHT! 'cause then they will pump your stomach and that hurts like a BIT*H.

why not just OD on coke? that's our plan. see you in the after life, woopwoop dark carnivale, here we come mother fu*kers.
not being sarcastic.

My daughter, Rosie, took her own life 2 years ago. She was a very intelligent, creative person. She had tried to take her life on a number of occasions over the years. I (her father) spent a lot of time trying to help her. There were times she wanted to die and times she was afraid of dying. It almost ran in cycles and I began to recognise when she was approaching a bad 'episode'. I can only try to imagine the 'demons' she had to suffer at times. It must have been awful. It was bad enough for me! She was handed to me from the womb and we bonded. I was in tears that day. Twenty-five years later I found her dead and I collapsed, grief stricken - literally! I cried every day for a year.

Over 200 people attended her funeral - she was a well-loved woman. Her death is something I will never get over and has caused incredible pain to all her loved ones.

Most of us experience low self-esteem, frustration with the system we live under, having to do mind-numbingly boring jobs to provide for our families and to retain self-respect. Life is painful and not easy for anyone. But it has happy 'windows', little things we create to look forward to - after all, the purpose of life is to live! And the best way to do that is to put the interest of others before our own. It brings many rewards in different shapes and sizes. Putting others first gets me out of my mind for a while - helps me keep sane!

That's the way I see it! But what about you?

My daughter took drugs at s a young teenager, as have you.The brain goes through a massive expansion programme during the teenage years (as it does during the 'terrible twos') and modern genetically-altered drugs contain more potent chemicals which are capable of damaging this structure. Most people can take these things 'safely' in moderation but some are predisposed to damage. It seems to me you are one of those. There may be an underlying problem which needs to be addressed, such as bi-polar. Unfortunately, if you live in England, the Mental Health care is deplorable. So whilst it appears you have had treatments in hospital, maybe you need to be more insistent on a proper diagnosis. Some diagnoses are put in place because of lack of funding and a different diagnosis leads to a different level of care. Rosemary only got care at all because her behaviour landed her in Court and the Court was wise enough to recognise her mental state and ordered forensic care.

I am currently corresponding between the Coroner and the NHS over my dissatisfaction with her care. This is 2 years later - and so it still goes on.

Maybe people who commit suicide are selfish. Maybe they are selfish in everyday life and that is why they see no purpose. Loving kindness to others is probably the best reason for living. To know you've brought a smile to someones face is such a buzz. Well, it is for me anyhow. I still strive to do it even now, with my heart in a million pieces! It keeps me sane.

A good friend of mine was a Barnardo's orphan. He was abused as a child. He is one of the kindest people I've ever met. We are all different but he illustrates that one doesn't have to carry a chip on ones shoulder forever. He does still have nightmares about his abuse - he is 70 now!

Anyway, that's it. You asked for my thoughts. Whether they are any use to you I don't know. I hope you don't commit suicide. Things never stay the same so give life a second chance - it deserves it!

You can email me if you like.

Personal experience.

DO NOT DO IT! I know your life isn't good at the moment, but that can and will change! I know you don't want to hear anything, but I'm warning you that if you do decide to do it, you have made a very scary and sad and bad decision. Think of all of the life ahead of you! You can change just get help and hang in there! Please, I'm begging you, DON'T DO IT!!!!! Go and get help and call a help line right now!

First of all, I'm just surprised how many people have gone and tried to suggest you proffesional help. Because personally, if I was feeling like you was, I dont think I would be in the mood to book my self into therapy and postpone my thoughts for another week....

Second of all, even though you seem like you dont care about your life at the moment, I dont think that is true. Because, somewhere inside you, you want someone to read this and you want them to give you at least some sort of reaction, because the people in your life who was supposed to love you, didnt give you a reaction when you needed it the most....

And thirdly, even though I do not know what you have been through, we have ALL come across this thought at least once in our lives, and anyone who says they havnt are liars. Let me tell you, even though yes you said doing it will hurt your friends and family, but you are also right. It is up to you, and it is your choice and because I dont know you I cannot stop you... But let me just tell you what I said to myself when the thought came to me. I thought about how much I have made an impact in this life. And if i was gone, I will be only be remembered by my friends and family, and because I am no longer living. Yes friends and family will weep because they have to, and passers by will say "Oh thats such a shame" because to them its just another person they dont know who is just 'news' to them, and I will soon be forgotten and will only simply be a memory. A memory which cant even do anything, which cant even feel. So you ask yourself, is that what you want to be, just a memory?

You sound angry. You will do whatever you want to do true enough and I will not try to convince you either way. What I would advice you do is to research death by Paracetamol overdose. It does not happen instantly it drags on and on for up to 18 days and the pain and other symptoms become excruciating over that period of time. I have seen this happen more than once. Anadin is simply more Paracetamol. Look up the link below for more information.

You did not say how old you are or indeed what type of help you have had so not able to advice or comfort you that may go some way to help you before you make your final decision. There is nothing anyone can do if you do not make and take the first steps to turn your life around so like I said I will not try to convince you either way, it is your decision at the end of the day.

http://www.rcsed.ac.uk/fellows/bcpaterson/new_page_4.htm

look, you need to stop the drugs, stop the suicide thing and you need to put yourself together. Maybe life isn't going your way because you aren't trying. Life is a hard game to play but when you got your strategy down you just keep on winning. Try a sport. Sports make you feel wonderful about yourself. just do anything to get away from the drugs and bad thoughts! try thinking about the last time you were happy and keep replaying that over and over until you can get back to that moment! please don't go through with this..... you hav another chance, you just need to try...!!! i promise, please!!! you can write to me everyday and i'll help you everyday with all of your problems but don't give up

It is pretty easy to blame family and others for the way you have turned out but at the end of the day
you are responsible for yourself obviously if you are going to stick around to see what peoples thoughts are your resolve looks a little weak to be honest. I have spent 10 years trying to shake off a serious illness and have sometimes felt like giving up but I value my life no matter how tough it might be. If you do not value yours then that is your choice. Why are you asking us?

I think you should never ask for answers or help from people that have never experienced what you went through in your life. Or as the saying goes, ( have never walked a mile in your shoes). Most people cant understand your pain because they have never experienced ,or learned about life the same way you have. Its as helpful as a bird trying to teach a fish to fly or vice versa. So when people who have no knowledge in this area give you advice, you feel like their just putting you down, or its hopless,or are just writing you off, which probably makes you feel like theres no point in even trying noboby cares anyway. These suggestions just seem to make you feel even worse. It seems like you need to talk with people who really understand your thinking, level to level, who have been through the same thing you been through, like a support group. You need people to make you feel like your not crazy, there is hope,your not a nobody,and really care about what you have to say, and your not alone.But of all, your loved.

I have had and am still going through the same pain. I was molested as a child,have had both physical and mental abuse from a marrage,and was also raped.I am a 4 stroke surviver(which started at age 29), I have developed ,what Im what doctors call a codependent caretaker, and suffer from O.C.D.s, argraphobia, and panic attack disorder. And have bi-polar, and clinical depression, I am 47 years old.

please please please please pleaseeeee! dont do it. your live may seem bad right now. but i promise you it WILL get better, God is with you and he loves you!!! I promise you if you dont commit suicide you'll be so happy you didnt.. there is SO many people that will miss you!! and you may think nobody can help you with your problems right now.. but thats not true, theres always one person that will help you and that is the one and only God. i promise you he does miracles!!

my advice for you..
1.read this.
2.DONT commit suicide! pleasee!!!
3.talk to someone you can trust.
4.go to church talk to someone about it, i promise they can help u! they dont care about your past. they care about your future. as do i.
5.Pray! God can perform miracles! (: i know he has for me!

im here for you, Gods here for you, and so are amny others.


i'll be praying for you (:

Please seek professional help now. Besides, what if you were to win the lottery tomorrow??? Aren't there places in the world you would like to see and things you would like to do? Think of the people that love you, and if you don't have someone special now, think of what it would be like to love someone completely that you may have never even met, yet. Hang in there. It gets better. Maybe not overnight, but it does get better. I have been where you are. I am so glad I stuck it out. Life can be wonderful. But happiness does not just magically appear. You have to build a foundation for it to take hold. I wish you luck.

1 Get some professional help.#2 think of all the people in your life that would be sad and upset.#3change your attitude.#4 people who talk about it rarely go thru with it to the full extent.Maybe all you need is a positive out look on life,but you have to be willing to do so. #4 no body wants to hang out with someone who is depressed all the time.Either get busy dying or get busy living!

Personally, I think people who commit suicide are just sad. They wrather waste their life planning an early death, being all depressed and what not, and take an easy way out, wrather then face their own problems.
If the person had tried everything, then so be it, but others cannot help those, who dont have an interest to help themselves in the first place. Whats the point of going to therapists and such, if that person would wrather plan out their suicide, and smoke, do drugs and drink until the next day? No one is willing to help them, not until that person realizes he / she has an alcohol or drug issue / problem that needs to get dealt with first.
Drugs only help people because they make them believe the un real, they are an escape from reality, so if that person wants to constantly do drugs then he / she should, but its not going to help them at all.
Lastly, I think the person needs to get off the drugs, eventually quit. Stop drinking so much and stop wasting money on beer, drugs, ect. Then stand up to their problems. Suicide is an escape for weak people, its like a chicken exit really. Death will solve nothing, it will just end a life and make others feel terrible.
The person should get their life in order, get some motivation, stop drinking and doing so many drugs, get a job or career and just move on. If they have a family or friends who dont like them or care for them O well. Those people shouldnt be important, they shouldnt matter, what matters is that person needs to face problems, instead of trying to run from them and not wanting to deal with it.
Take a step forward in life, do things for you. You have to help yourself before others will pitch in and want to help you,
Dont live in the past, just move on with life and enjoy the rest of it.

Thats what I think about suicide, but this is a personal opinion,
I hope it helps though
Good luck :)