Why do I physically beat myself up?!
Question: Why do I physically beat myself up?
Answers:
I do the same thing :/ People are always asking what the bruises on my arms and legs are from. I'm also too scared to cut myself because I think I'll bleed to death. And anyway bruises go away, scars don't. But what's helped me is when I feel like I want to hurt myself I snap a rubberband on my arm instead. It still hurts, but not as much. Exercising also helps, especially kickboxing. It's like your hurting someone, but not ;) Maybe get into a physical sport like karate or kickboxing to not only blow off some steam, but work on self-control? Good luck!!!!!
You are depressed! People hurt themselves (or take drugs) because physical pain distracts them from emotional pain. You should go to therapist and talk to him or her about your life. I think there are some sad and painful memories in you -- maybe your parents got divorced, maybe you experienced some kind of trauma, maybe you lost a great friend, but something is making you sad at times. You need to understand what it is so that you can make sense of it and stop beating yourself up.
You probably have Depression or feeling overwhelmed with stress. I have had the same problem before. It was a few years ago when I was dealing with a lot of stress, I would sometimes start punching my arm. It's a way you vent your frustration. Even though it isen't cutting, it's still self harm. Please talk to someone you trust that can help you! You are not pathetic or weak. You can talk to counselor that would know safe ways to cope with intense feelings. Good Luck ?
cuz your emo, embrace the dark side :)