Do you think that this is enough to keep myself busy by just looking for a Job f!

I'm 22 from brooklyn new york with no experience.My disabilities is learning disabilities yes I do get stress when I can't catch up with stuff and my condition is depression and anxiety used to be on clonazepam 0.5mg but now I be out of it since last summer and did suffer the withdrawal effects like eating well but fought though now I'm capable to eat well right now I'm only on effexor xr 37.5mg.So far I been searching for jobs like fast food and retail sales and I started on last Tuesday looking at 10:30am around my area and I got a few application like the supermarket, and McDonnal and on wednesday not so much I left from my house at 11:00am and I kinda almost cover all the store thats is around my area just got two applications and came back home at 1:30pm I still didn't hand the applications yet because I want to wake up more early like at 8:00am I may get hired on the spot or not and show them that I'm serious.Today I was suppose to go to my program call YAI is for people with disabilities and I go there every once a week they suppose to help people find a job that better suite them but Idk what's the hold up with them.I wasn't able to sleep well last night and went to bed at 3:00am its not that I'm not serious but I don't seem to fall asleep it could be the bed that is uncomfortable and stiff moving left and right and ever since I panic when I went to the barber shop to get a haircut I do not know why I did panic I used my commend sense saying that its just a haircut and that everything was going to be better once I get outside but my heart was racing as I was siting on that chair.And last night I didn't panic but I told myself that heart problems and panics are two different things heart problem there is no control and there nothing to fear if it happens it happens unlike panic you can control that heart problems and panics are not the same I say heart problems because I don't want to mention that word.And it works I wasn't being afraid of anything and as I was falling asleep around 5:00pm my chest was tremble I do not know why.So I woke up in the Morning at 8:00am and my body and my chest was shaking and I was feeling cold yea I did put on my fan a little low last night but it was only to blow around and not toward me so I call the job coach at the program that I go and I told her that I was sick I didn't want to take any chances to be trembling on the street and start throwing up after I done that I went sleep woke up at 12:30pm and felt better but was too late to continue searching for jobs.
I stop taking effexor 37.5mg since monday I think it was the withdrawal effexor I'm not sure and the nerves on my teeth is becoming annoying.I want to be permanent out of any kinds of meds because it messing with the emotion and it doesn't exits I also had to renew my medicaid and enroll for therapy and Psychiatric so now I,am on the waiting list.So far this is the only way to keep me busy outside other than that I don't know than playing PS3 which is broken.

I notice something when I step outside of my house just about to go to white castle that guy next door needed some help to delivery something at the gym and was only something small and paid me 3 dollars I felt out of shape and exhausted as I was walking up the stair I wasn't breathing well from the noise and it been a long time that I haven't been going to gym because I can't afford it I don't got money either and no friends.So yea the panic that I had on wednesdays had to play a part of it too.