I cry myself to sleep every night and try to keep myself from wanting to die?!
Question: I cry myself to sleep every night and try to keep myself from wanting to die?
my mom cheats on my dad (my dad is a pilot hes never home) all the time and i know because ive seen her text messages with them.
and she smokes a lot (trying to keep it a secret but ive seen her) and drinks a lot when she promised me she would never do either again (bad experience before)
my dad on he other hand has a 3 year term girlfriend and its no secret to the family (my mom me my brother) also proof
my brother has physically (no bad enough to make black eyes or anything just pull my hair bad and kick me hard and slap me alot), emotionally, and verbally abused me over many years always telling me i was fat and useless and no reason to live.
at school (i go to a Christian school) people are very mean. They push me around and make fun of me even though i hang out in the 'popular crowd' i have NO REAL FRIENDS.
i act like everything is okay but people think im stupid and dont actually CARE about me.
Sometimes i feel like if i just ran away.... WOULD ANYBODY EVEN CARE????
I cry myself to sleep EVER NIGHT
My mom is a *****.
My brother is a ********.
And people at my school are assholes.
I have had suicidal thoughts and i hate it.
I also have anxiety problems
The only thing that i have worth living for is the future when i can just leave here and i love tennis.
Answers:
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Talk first to your school consular,i hate to say this,but you may be better off in a foster home.
You can't take this for 4 more years,Keep playing your tennis and keep studying,
it will come in handy in a few years.You can also see about medication for your anxiety.
that may not even help since reality is the real problem.Plus don't run away,
worse things will most likely happen.never think about taking your own life.
Regardless what happens now,after help and 4 years,you are free.
maybe way before GOD willing.take care..bless you
I recommend you talk to my best friend, She's helped me with many many things in the past,
Worse actually.
I'm sure she could do the same for you.
add her on facebook, or email her.
Facebook.com/superninjaskills
or
katiekittyy@gmail.com
Tell her Jeffery Addison sent you.
Used to be suicidal
Seriously..tell your school counselor tell them if your feeling suicidal or like your going to run away. They will do something about it. Take your mom somewhere where its just you and her and tell her how you feel.
Asking for help is the absolute best thing you can do. Getting some meds can make you feel better.
You are so worth it. Seriously that's ******* awful and no place for you to be. You don't have any other family, friends you could maybe move in with? Okay despite what they say or do you definitely are NOT useless. I think you should pursue tennis and if you feel like you can't handle it at home, contact someone who can help you. There are many people/groups, etc. that are founded for that purpose!
And don't go for the meds. Trust me. There are so many other ways to handle it.