i think have a problem with myself, i cannot understand myself?!
Question: I think have a problem with myself, i cannot understand myself?
I did changed a bit,may be i am developing due to puberty. I hardly talk to someone and in my mind it is just heavy, and dark. i sleep very much, to be frank i have this like everyday, i sleep only for 3 hours. at school it is very difficult. But i manage to be normal there.
I do have dark moods, i feel like i need to go away sometimes i think i should even be death but at the end i tell myself that it do not work. I should live, My life is depressing because i will never be someone happy. That's what i think, perhaps i am pessimist to myself. I think it is because of my life, my mid teen life psychologically affected me a lot. I will not be complaining about this or that, or make any things more difficult,i tried to talk to many people but either it did not worked or they did not listen.
I am very uncomfortable talking or meeting people, i do not behave normal when i am out,i am always stressed or nervous,shy,sweating and scared. I try not to make so much friends because one day i will go or they will go away without leaving any contact. I always thinks about a green park near a lake in the autumn.
Am i mentally ill or disturbed ? or do i need some hope and try to take things as it is. Please try to give me some advise about how to be better, or please tell me how you did to feel better. Thank you kindly,
Answers:
Sounds like your have not learned many social skills, but if your parents are actually like you describe they may not have much in the way of social skills to pass on.
You may also have some problem with depression it is not uncommon in teens, I would suggest that you speak to your school counselor or minister. Most kids out grow much of what you describe, but at 17 your are almost ready to step into the adult world.
As far as having a "normal" lifestyle, that term, normal can only be applied if you have a frame of reference of actual experience to other families, and from how your describe things you have no friends to use as an example of what families. My son and I didn't to walks, or picnics, but there were other things. I can honestly say that as an adult he and I are friends and talk about almost everything.
Have been a volunteer working with troubled teens for years.
Maybe ur depressed. Being depressed isn't the end of the world. Mayb u should talk to a doctor.but I don't think ur crazy
Please don't think of hurting yourself. Sounds like you need to know God, your spiritual Father, then pray about your life. He can help you live a better life. God doesn't want you to hurt yourself, but to know and follow God to have a good life with Him. As God is love, life is primarily about love and relationships in order to have a rich and full life. Also, you need to know God's Son, Jesus Christ, in your life as your Lord and Savior as Jesus died on the cross as payment for our sins. Having Him with you will give you God's blessing and forgiveness, as you live God's way. We need to know and follow God in this life so we can go to heaven after we die, and so we can get God's help now. Not following God leads to hell, eternal suffering. Instead, there is an important prayer to pray to become a born again Christian. This prayer should be said with faith in God and a sincere heart:
"Dear God, I know that I am a sinful person and I don't want to be like this anymore. I know that Jesus Christ died on the cross as payment for our sins, and I want to accept Jesus Christ into my life as my Lord and Savior forever so I can receive God's forgiveness, guidance, and go to heaven after I die. Thank you, dear God, for your mercy and guidance; in Jesus' name. Amen."
After saying this prayer, you should check out a Christian church like Baptist, Catholic, Lutheran.
Also, get into their Bible study group so you can learn more about God, Jesus, and God's will for your life. The Bible is God's instruction book about how to live a God-honoring life so you can go to heaven after you die. The church can also get you baptized and prayed for. You can pray for yourself daily too. God guide your life.
I totally understand...been working with troubled teens for over 25 years...seen it all. The good news...you will grow out of it...just try not to do anything that will cause lasting damage in the mean time. It is called adolescence, it is rarely easy and sometimes even fatal but when it's over you will be an independent adult. What you are going through now helps set the scene for the rest of your life it is like a series of bad dreams and when you wake up, you will know much better what kind of a person you want to be.
Best wishes...the toughest journeys take us to the most amazing places.