What could this disorder be? Should I be concerned?!
Question: What could this disorder be? Should I be concerned?
I have an eating disorder and go from self starvation to binging and purging. I get moods of anxiety and depression, especially out in public. I hate being alone, but don't want to socialize because I feel too fat and unacceptable with my appearance. I feel very insecure. I cut myself, burn myself, and overdose on pills. I am very suicidal and just attempted suicide last night with self mutilation. I lie about everything--big and small. Ever since I could talk, I've been known as a compulsive liar. I criticize others for their mistakes, call them stupid, but never to their face. When I'm elated, I feel like I'm the best one in the group. Things have to be perfect to me, like the way I look. I don't take criticism well, but don't like to show how I feel because I may be called stupid.
Answers:
If you're attempting suicide, you should be concerned. It sounds almost like bipolar disorder to me -- sometimes you're really happy and satisfied with yourself but other times you're depressed and self-destructive. You mentioned that you have an eating disorder (sounds like bulimia nervosa) and that you don't take criticism very well and that you feel fat, which leads me to believe you may have some body dysmorphic issues (you think you're too fat/ugly/whatever but you really aren't).
I'm not a doctor or a therapist but I would say it sounds like bipolar and you really should be honest with your doctor about everything so you can get treated effectively.
woah im looking at your picture and your BEAUTIFUL. i take ballet so the pressure is ON to stay thin, but if we feel that way we just call this number:
if your in the U.S., call 1-800-273-8255
National Suicide Prevention Lifeline
You serve a purpose in this world so please don't leave:)
Resperidone is good for anxiety and it's safe not like xanex