Now I am older I am having problems with bad childhood memory's?!

I'm 20 yrs. old. Sometimes I still have bad memories 2. Try talking 2 U'r friends/family U trust, distracting U'r self, read, watch funny t.v. shows or write feelings down.

I don't like doctors cuz I was misdiagnosed a lot & put on antidepressants. I felt worse {acting out & suicidal}. So I know how U feel about professionals like that. I call those memories that r coming back 2 U "Triggers or After Shocks" (random events that happen which bring up bad memories.) U'r having "Triggers" now, there's things that r happening that remind U of bad experiences in the past.
Is seeing a therapist 2 related 2 a psychiatrist? If it is then don't do that. Talk 2 some 1 U work/worked with.

1 of the biggest/worst memories come up wen ever I go 2 the doctors, same w/ my mom. It's really starting 2 bother her now wen she goes 2 the doctors. She delays doctor apts. as long as she can. I do 2. I feel like we have 2 prepare our selves just 2 go. She's a reasonable person but her triggers (bad memories) r so bad that she dozn't always know wat 2 do. It's bothering her a lot, I feel the same way. I hate going 2 the doctors.

I try 2 distract myself w/ watching cartoons, helping kids, telling jokes & keeping myself busy. U can try that 2. I hate going 2 bed because I get bad dreams so I listen to music as long as I can. Wen ever I hear/see some 1 throw up I'll leave the room & get upset. I pace around, close my eyes & sometimes cry because of bad memories. [I just had a bad memory 2 days ago, a bad 1 2] I also get bad memories from when I got raped whenever I go in the shower, bed, go in 2 other peoples' home & wen ever I have my period. I've attempted suicide a few times 2. My family is wat got me 2 stop myself from trying kill myself.

My family was/is very good though. My family couldn't control any of the bad experiences no mater how hard they tried. & they tried hard a lot. No 1's born a professional 2 cure things.

Again try 2 distract U'r self. Help kids, watch tv, listen 2 music, read, tell jokes or find thing that make U laugh, & exercise. Cool! I live in Minnesota, U.S.A. Good luck!! Feel better!! =)

There are a lot of online support centres where you can speak with social worker types, or you could look for places around you that hold support group meetings. The best way to deal with life long problems is to realize that you lived past them and are a stronger person for it. If it really continues to plague you and you don't want to talk to strangers about it try finding a friend or family member to vent to whenever you feel down. Good luck coping though

An american scientist developed a fantastic method to heal and it has been successfully used over the last ten years or so on many things, it works quickly and effectively, no matter how old the pain is. You have some good theraists there in the uK that practice this method , emotional-health.co.uk is one and others at eftmastersworldwide.com
There is a free self help version he wanted everyone to have acces to at eftuniverse.com click on 'get started free' check out the resource area, also, and a free online conference starting feb 21st at 2011tappingworldsummit.com here is a video for veterans stressproject.org

It works really well, and you don't have to deal with any perv psychiatrists in the process.
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best wishes

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dont down your self since your 60 you have the world in your hands basically go have a beer with the guys go to las vegas or just have fun you know buy yourself a nice car in general put thrill in your life