i feel like there's no point in my life...?!

that age is a drag but hang in there its like being at the train station you wait and wait and the train is late and you get all bitter then it or something arrives and off whoosh and you cant keep up with the passing of time. find god better in the cold and it takes its time answering as well

Allie?.. Just a guess. Bu t i feel so bad for how you feel. Maybe you can open up to a friend

death is never the answer

I think we're both having the same problem. Never have I come across someone's story and identified so much, in fact I've shunned people that comment answers 'OMG this is me!!1!! LOL" But yeah, this is my life without the whole family in Poland thing. :)

To be honest, you aren't alone, and as annoying and cliche as it sounds, you really aren't. Make a list of all the things that may happen in the future that you look forward to, imagine your ideal goal and run with it. My list is downstairs in the back of my notebook and I'm too lazy to go and get it but it includes things like 'Find love', 'lose love', 'find love again', 'live in the country', 'be disappointed by the country', 'watch more crap films', 'make new friends'... it's a long list that's a therapeutic process. I go to see a counselor, who told me I'm depressed, but for my sake, and yours, i think we should agree that it doesn't change a thing and this whole state of mind is a phase. Be self indulgent and idealize the future. I promise you you're important, I promise you. Even if some higher being says you aren't what does it matter? Life is so fleeting, but that's what makes it so beautiful. Dress up for yourself, go out, watch clouds pass, watch people, eat really terrible food, get sick, grow old alone with fifty cats, be lazy and don't do anything, go to ridiculous places, and don't strive to be happy.

You're wonderful and don't let anyone tell you different. xxx

Your job is to finish school.
Your mother is having a hard enough time with an alcoholic husband without you complaining all the time. Try to stay civil to your sister, the 2 of you should pull together in this family.
Everyone needs a job of some kind to pay rent and bills.
You don't need a boyfriend at 14.

I find your name ironic. But in all seriousness, i think you need to get a girlfriend/boyfriend. (sorry i cldnt tell ure gender) A good solid realtionship can change your life. Trust me i know. I had the same problem as you. But then i met a girl. She was and stil is amazing. She gives me a reason to get out of bed. Trust me. Give your life a chance. Meet someone. Good luck. Please dont kill yourself.

Well first of all do you realize how many people would kill to be naturally intelligent like yourself? Honey your only 14 years young and Im positive you have soo many wonderful moments just waiting for you up ahead. Its only natural as a teenager to feel like the whole world is against you, like everyone and everything just wants to beat on you any way they can. But thats life. You have to face it head on to get anywhere. Dont worry about your drunken dad your pain in the a** mom and think about yourself for the time being. And well your sister I have to of those youll always have your differences but she'll always be your best friend. You have no reason to do anything stupid. Dont give up on God or yourself. He can't change your life if you dont do your part in changing it. Work your butt off in school, dress nice, go to church and show the world what your made of. Boys will be there forever so dont worry about that just let that come to you. You seem like such a bright young lady and im sure no matter what you do, no matter what obstacles you face in your future you'll do great. And friends come and go but im sure your going to make plenty more of them and blow them away. (: Keep your head up. Things get worse before they get better.

school does not last forever and we all have to go through it

try talk to someone you trust,maybe there is a school counsellor but school is certainly not worth dying for

Your going about this all the wrong way with your mum
you disrespected her religion
you are depressed and that alone needs help from your dr
your home life is dysfunctional,your dad sounds like a drunk depressed man,and the drink will just be fuelling his depression

your right you will go to college but after that the worlds is your oyster!!

dress up or down,meet a lad or don't,,,live in your own place go back to poland you can do it all
but first go to the Dr's tomorrow and speak to the school counsellor


its all depressing at the mo because you cant go out and have that much fun but it gets better

look on www.kidshealth.com

i have the same problem, but i've learned if you just stay head strong for a little while, all your work that your doing will pay off big time. I can personally promise you that something great in your future is gonna happen and you'll think to yourself "im so happy to be alive right now".

This is my last answer for the day. I've tried to help those poor depressed and "ending it all" people. You know what! I'm crying for those in great need of help. Carrying other peoples crosses is emotionally draining.
Being a catholic is one of those things you have to learn in time to value. Are you rejecting God or just the church. I think Pray is the biggest help of all,even if you don't want to say the usual prayers we catholics say, but are now so dear.
I don't go to church much. I do go to God in everything I do.
Life sounds very difficult for you. Your school work is not making it any easier for you. What I know of Polish people is they work very hard because they know hardship and they have come far through their troubles. It must be through their faith that has helped them be strong Please be strong, your faith will help you.
I wrote this when I was having a really bad time this:

When you can get through the worst time time in your life, you dig a goldmine instead of a grave.

My sister had hundreds of the one line made into bookmarks and put them in churches.

Your school work might be too much for you. Tell the head teacher to see if they can reduce the number of subjects for you. Children these days take far too may subjects not everyone can cope.
Your well being comes first.
Many best wishes to you. Hope things improve. Try helping others, it helps to find a purpose in your own life.

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