How does one become so cerebral, and what can be done to reverse it?!
Question: How does one become so cerebral, and what can be done to reverse it?
Anyway, something - something cerebral - that I can't quite sort out is causing this. I never experience life for what it is - my reality is clogged is the best way I can describe it. I never feel like myself. I write and I write and get nowhere close to being myself and enjoying life. Just being cerebral, or depression, I don't know. There aren't necessarily thoughts attached to the way I feel, but I do try to problem solve but there is nothing I can solve really... which I think has only made it worse. And it appears fear may have been integrated but I know it's only part of the illusion. I am not afraid to be myself - I in fact really like myself when I can be myself. I just never am able to feel that way and I have no clue why. It's time to start living again and stop being angry at myself for having let this continue for so long. But I don't know what to do since NOTHING I do helps. Any insight, GREATLY appreciated.
I know life is nowhere near this complicated. BUT, it feels that way for me, and it is that way for me no matter how much mental effort I use to combat it. It is easy to be happy and yourself, I know. I know the feeling. I've just never felt like that in the longest while. At this point I'm just overwhelmed by everything I used to be in the past, and the effortlessness of it...
Answers:
I know that the day will come when you will realize the futility of all this. You will realize that you are not your mind and when you do the game will be over as you now know it. I know this and I don't have to think about it. Right now you are accustomed to thinking as a way of being because of the identification with the mind and the absorbtion into the thinking process. You have become one with the mind. There is great security in this and the mind itself which we will address as the ego for our purposes here likes to keep it that way. This part of who you are lives in fear of it's own non existance and through identification so do you below the level of your consciousness. This fear binds you and manifests as a fear of the unknown. How could you not be afraid to venture out without the security blanket provided by the ego? It would take a great deal of faith to just let go and trust Life as it is. It is a leap of faith to be sure but you do not have to jump until you are ready. It takes time. Your mind will not accept this. You must keep the faith. Your ego has a vested interest in the status quo.
Your ego is part of your consciousness. This is why you cannot fight it without feeding it. It is not the way. The ego is the shadow aspect of you who are the light. You must remember that the shadow dances according to the light. The light does not dance according to the shadow unless of course the shadow can convince you that you must dance. It is you who are convinced and it is no more than that. The energy of your light has given rise to the shadow. It is a reflection and an illusion created by the movement of the energy of your light. At deep levels and in a very real way you are afraid of your own shadow. Stripped down it really is this simple. Try to keep it simple. The complications are mind bourne and for the very same reasons I touched on above.
The when and where are far more important than the how and why. Here now is all you need to concern yourself with. Let your feelings guide you purely. When you filter the feeling (emotional energy) through the mind it will get distorted and your energy (emotional) will be used to feed the shadow. Your feelings of anger, sadness, joy etc are manifested out of emotional energy. These are outcomes. There are much subtler levels of emotional energy that emanate from your source of Being. The source is undifferentiated spiritual energy and it is whole. It is our fragmented selves that fragment this energy into polar opposites and this causes us to become split in terms of our perspective. Your ego is the result of the split. It has split off from the wholeness of your consciousness and your identification with it means you are also split. Your thinking process is also an outcome. You have two choices but there is only one path back to wholeness. Act from your Heart Center and direct your energy according to feeling and not thinking. You have unconciously been making the other choice and you know where it has led you. As you can see there is only one choice. It takes much faith. I realize this. I have experienced this. I tell you what I know because it is yours to know. Trust your Heart. Do you feel any of these words resonate in the wordless realms? This is subtle energy. You are feeling it. You don't need your mind to know these things I say are True do you? That voice never lies. That voice is your guide. You must merely begin to listen to it beyond the mental chatter that seeks to drown it out. This is your key. The Heart is the key. Remember this always.
" stuck in mud " get into something , anything , no matter how small or below you i.q. just anything . it doesn't matter if you are not achieving just keep an interest , many past achievers go down .
Your intelligence is not being channelized the right way. It is being wasted on inane and repetitive questions in R & S. Go out and do your duties and if you have spare time help others in smallest way possible if you can and see the difference in your life.
http://www.bhagavad-gita.us/articles/32/…
Learn to stop and hear in silent and openly all the same time, see the Self. And be thinking thankful of yourself. And show the same kindness to all
Were in a new world which has respect in its nature, but wait for it; all are changing your not alone in this, he is alive.
Life is not you, it’s in us, You, and that lie is subsiding of you in its greater self to all as a gift to all. This is the unselfish me me and I I , which is always dead works, but the world took it to its heights and kill it and It is never coming back; it will be saved give it it's Challenge , us in all, You.
Learn to stop and hear in silent and openly all the same time, see the Self. And be thinking thankful of yourself. And show the same kindness to all
And in so doing you will come back and gain much more as trust is free in you and the fear of before will dissipate .
In Loving memory of you I pray he who is in us all.
Carey