Question:
Am I clinically insane, or do I have a mental disorder?
I lie, I manipulate, I'm emotionally abusive, people say I'm extremely charming, I feel that I don't commit crimes or do bad things because I'm protecting myself and my image, not because I would feel bad if I did something to someone. I have full out conversations with myself almost constantly when I'm alone, speaking as all the people in the conversation. My speech is often riddled with large vocabulary words and good grammar. I feel as if I have the ability to get anyone to like me, but then I typically crush their entire world. I'm anxious and paranoid often. I have no remorse when lying and I do it subconsciously almost 100% of the time. I will do almost anything to get what I want. I analyze EVERYTHING. I tend to "read" people and I often learn their habits and flaws quickly which makes them predictable and I can tell when they lie quite easily. What is wrong with me/how do I find out without going to a therapist? I do not have nearly enough money to pay for a therapist, they are extremely expensive. I need answers to be precise and detailed. I have a prescription to adderal XR and IR. All answers and suggestions are welcome.
Answers:
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This, my friend, is called being extremely bright. Even genius. I tend to be very paranoid and talk to myself sometimes and I do everything you do except lie all the time. Your not insane, but I dont know much about that sort of thing. I think your fine, if not better. Hope I helped. e.e
Oliver Jumelle, is right, there is a thought that Genius is one step from madness. It's possible that being very smart can make your brain work overtime, and this disorder fits that.
Sounds like you have a condition called obsessive compulsive disorder. Look on wikipedia
I have it
Not being being but sounds like you may be a Sociopath/Psychopath..
Good Luck..