I know my psychiatry but is this what depression feels like?!

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First off, one good thing is that you have a conscience.

And second of all, it appears that your conscience is bugging you.

You know in your heart that your working with evil forces, those Big Pharma corporations who are developing sadistic drugs,who are developing and using those drugs like witches in those clinical trials.

You may realize that in your heart that there really aren't any pills that can cure any ills, and it's too much to accept that the entire medical professions relience of treating disease with toxic chemicals is all about making money for corporate Big Pharma and the medical profession which appoves these worthless drugs which do more harm that good.

Your conscience is telling you to get out of that field.

Your conscience may be telling you that many of these clinical drug trials are harming innocent people.

Helping those in that evil field of clinical drug trials is not for you.

high stress levels and /or depression can do this

can your husband find another job
40000 is not unfeasible to live on but you are used to more and are prob stressed as you are the sole breadwinner hence feeling resentment toward your husband

sit sown and go through finances with a fine tooth comb
mortgage/insurance first
food
car insurance/petrol next
anything else is not so important

see a finance charity
go to your dr about your stress /depression

best wishes

You feel, your are the problem. You describe stress related depression perfectly. Never happy, not doing thing you used to enjoy. Lack of energy. sad for no reason. Feel pressured to be perfect , when you know you are not. Welcome to a large club, this is depression. And you can get other party favors, that put you flat on your back. Think about it, you are a successful woman, with prestige and then your partner puts the whole financial burden on you. This is what can beat you into the ground very easily. Estrangement, divorce. You know all this, your too Intelligent not to. Get help before your life explodes. You are in the worst situation that a married person could have, be the sole provider, and your not bringing in enough. Please seek help, you were dropped in a meat grinder, and it is the situation, that caused this. You have nothing to be ashamed of ,I admire that you have done all this juggling of the complexities of what you have to deal with. You are a strong lady, but you need some help.

this is what depression feels like. you need to see your regular doctor first off to make sure that nothing is physically wrong with you. tell him/her how you are feeling. he/she may decide to treat you for depression or may decide to send you to a psychiatrist for diagnosis and treatment. i know what you are going through. i suffer from several forms of mental illness and one of them is severe depression. along with seeing a psychiatrist i also see a psychologist on a regular basis for talk therapy which has been a great help to me. many blessings to you and i hope that your husband finds work soon to help take the pressure off of you.

personal experience.