okay, what do I do with my depression?!
Question: Okay, what do I do with my depression?
My problem: I'm obsessed with this guy. I know, sounds stupid. But I just.. Can't stop thinking about him. I refuse to say I love him because I don't actually know him. :(
And then there's my mom-always screaming that she 'f?cking hates her life' and wishes we'd 'not f?ck up so much.'. Since I was seven, the world was on my shoulders. I never had time to mess around or be a child without something happening. My dad lives 3,000 miles away. He's bipolar and gets drunk and is on disability. I don't knowwhat to think of him.
My brother. I love him to pieces. He's 16 and really nice to me but he's bipolar, too. When my mum takes everything out on him, he takes it out on me and I can't blame him. But I'm the end of the line.
I cut sometimes. I don't care what you say, it helps. But in my counselors eyes, it's the worse thing I could do. I know it's bad, but it relieves me. What do I do??
Btw, my 'vent' is music. I live, breathe, love music. I constantly listen to it.
Answers:
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I'm so sorry that you have to feel that way. It sucks to be a kid and to feel like you have the weight of the world on your shoulders. Everyone should have someone they can reach out to to at least help them through the rough times. It's really unfair.
There's no simple answer here. The best I can give you is that I felt like that 5 years ago, and things get infinitely better. Keep fighting it, and focus on not losing sight of who you are. Don't give up on your religion or yourself, because those are things you'll be really grateful for in the future. Don't ever let anybody tell you that you don't have a right to feel what you're feeling. Don't be afraid to cry and don't be afraid to feel. One of the worst things in the world that could happen to you is that you forget how to feel and become tough and uncaring.
Try to find passion. don't just listen to music...make music. or if you're completely tone deaf like I am find something else creative to do. Write poetry. Take pictures. Paint. Whatever makes you feel alive, do it.
And please, please, please don't kill yourself. You have way too much in you; you'd be doing a disservice to the world. You can do so much good; please don't throw that away.
I can promise you with absolute certainty that things will get better. Someday you'll be able to look back on this time as a past that's part of you, that made you, but is just a memory. The suffering is what makes us the people we are, and makes the journey worth it when we finally reach happiness.
Find the strength to keep going. It's in you, somewhere. keep your eyes on the prize. You CAN make it.
If you need to talk, shoot me an e-mail. I don't know you, but I can listen. Everybody should have someone there to listen.
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