Loss of Motivation and Mild Depression..Help?!
Question: Loss of Motivation and Mild Depression..Help?
-17 Years old
-Male
-128Lbs.
-Junior in highschool
-Go to a very small highschool, very little social variety
-Have ADD
So I've got a little bit of a motivation issue these days.
I feel like when I wake up in the morning, I have no energy to get up and go to school, and I mean NO ENERGY. ZERO.
I used to have to take adderall for ADD until middle school, but stopped cause it made me feel like a zombie and have horribly irritable and paranoid crashes.
I'd Even had some emotional breakdowns on it, weird ****.
Anyway, so then I had to switch to drinking coffee, MULTIPLE times per day. That sucked and never really gets me the energy I need.
I recently went back on my Adderall and have plenty of motivation at school, but it makes me this emotionless robot...
To be honest though, I recently decided to go back on my Adderall as more of an antidepressant than an ADD drug.
Before I went on the Adderall, I felt (and still feel) like my mental health is declining.
On days I don't take Adderall (weekends) I feel fatigued all day and don't get any work done and feel like ****.
I just wish that for once I could have motivation to better myself that didn't make me cold and emotionless...
I feel like sometime later in my life, I'm going to end up killing myself because I'm so unmotivated to do anything.
Some days I feel like I've lost the will to live.
Is there anything I can do PHYSICALLY that could lead to better mental health?
Like, I masturabte every day (which I honestly don't think is too often). But I've heard it can lead to depression and Chronic fatigue?
My sleep schedule is pretty irregular too, some nights I'll get 8 or 9 hours, others I'll get 5 or 6. On weekends I usually sleep WAAAAAAY IN and get 10-12 hours. I've heard sleep deprivation/carrying a heavy sleep debt can lead to negative effects on mental health?
I really don't wanna seek help for depression though, cause if my parents thought I was depressed they probably wouldn't believe me, or they'd just get worried about me.
Like that would definitely scrwe with my relationship with my parents/sister.
ANY TIPS WOULD BE HELPFUL!
Answers:
Whoa! You sound exactly like me! Except your weight. Everything down to your age, meds, sleep habits, and everything is just like me.
One thing I found that helps is getting a hobby. Something that isn't long term, but something you can enjoy for a while. Xbox live is sometimes what I do before school in the morning, and that wakes me up.
Wow, it's so weird meeting someone, like, exactly the same. Does the Adderall make you not hungry too???? Whenever I take it, I feel full during lunch, and not as hungry during the dinner.
Oh ya, and I totally left my old friends, and made new ones. Actually most of the new ones were girls, so they actually cared (it sounds kinda gay, but it's true) and their boyfriends were awesome guys. I played football and stuff, so I didn't look gay, just like a guy with a lot of girls who are friends