what is wrong with me mentally?!

i don't believe in antidepressants so i won't go there. As for your anger and sadness, etc. something that has benefited many people (including me) is to sit down and start thinking about the things that are wrong or your life and the people that have hurt you. this will be painful, but it is necessary. as you have these people in your mind try to think about it from their point of view. everyone is hurting, and just like you, they hide it and lash out at people.

forgive them.

when you think about the problems in your take them one by one and come up with a solution to it. these might not all be immediate solutions, it might be only something that can come with time. somethings you just have to wait out.

Think about what you really enjoy, and i mean REALLY enjoy. not the things you think you like. almost everyone is completely burdened down with activities that they THINK they like. what is that you really have a passion for? for me its art and hiking in the woods. those are two things i have seriously neglected. do things that actually make you feel good.

about feeling insecure. i have felt very insecure in my life. i have even suffered from anorexia. people tell you that you're beautiful just the way you are, but you know what? that's bull crap. no matter how much people tell us we are beautiful and to believe in ourselves we won't. every time we look in the mirror we will be reminded about everything that's wrong our faces and bodies. the answer is to except that. no is perfect. some people seem perfect, but they aren't. and you know what? who cares what they think! we don't have to be perfect, we don't even have to be pretty. the people that only love you when you are pretty are not worth your time.

and finally, and it is the hardest of all.

Stop think about yourself.

i'm not condemning you or anything.. its just the truth. we all think about ourselves WAY too much. be aware of your thoughts, are you thinking about YOUR life? what people think of YOU? how YOU can make YOUR life better? how YOU can make other people like YOU more?

stop.

start thinking about other people. start thinking about things that really matter in the long run. start thinking about who you can bless people with your actions, not to make them like you more, but just to make their life better. the more you look inside the more you will hurt. look outside of yourself. everyone is hurting. what can you do about that?

You either need to start smoking weed or just learn to control your ******* anger . stop feeling sorry for yourself and start doing **** . instead of reacting just think .. why am i angry .. try and look at yourself from somebody else's perspective . Think before you react . this advice helped me a lot .

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Your depressed about something or maybe more then one thing. You need to get that anger under control before you get arrested. Get fit or learn how to fight this will build your confidence and build your confidence.

Sounds like anxiety, go see your GP/doctor or therapist...

to me it sounds like you could be depressed you say you dont feel motivated to do things a loss of motivation and a lack of energy , constant tiredness are symptoms of depression

getting upset easily crying and snapping at others and the anger are also symptoms as depression can effect your emotions and make you react more emotionally to things or out of character

you say you feel like a failure and dumb (which im sure isnt true ) low self esteem and feelings of desperation worthlessness can be a sign of depression and feelings of despair

finaly depression can also result in physical pains for example muscle pains chest pains

I wouldnt be embarassed to see your doctor it doesnt have to be one that knows your family if your anxious about that you could request to see someone else and whatever you tell him would be confidential or speak to someone you trust teacher ? family member ? friend

Don't be embarassed, you're a strong person and life is hard when you don't let others in to help you out. We're not alone, you're not alone, so tell the ones you love about how you have been feeling, perhaps they will suggest you talk it over with your doctor or a psychiatrist. There is no need to go through this alone, you're grieving and you deserve support, so do yourself a favouy and open your arms to somebody who will listen and can help. Your doctor is a great person to start with, if you think your family won't understand.

All the best.

Hello,

As I read your story I thought to myself, "wow this is exactly how I used to be." That was about three years ago and as of now, my life has changed for the better. I tried everything you've been told before, try to get out and socialize. Try to make some new friends. Try to look at the positive side of life. Your pain is stress from your mental anguishes. etc... All of that is a load of crap. The best solution is self-realization. The key is to understand why you're feeling this way and to find out how you can change your state of mind to reach such conclusions. I couldn't do this at first, but I eventually came to and i'll tell you how. Now first off, I don't condone drugs or drug use. It leads down paths that only a few can benefit from. I did however do a lot of research and found out that Marijuana can help bring out the light in dreary situations. After I was depressed to the point of no return and out of possible solutions, I decided to call up my one good friend (who I had been pushing away, like you are doing now) and ask him if he wanted to try it. We eventually did and since then, things have changed for me. Our social lives expanded because we started hanging out with the kid we bought from, who is a great guy. We opened up a channel of new friends that we now hang out with on a weekly basis. We found that it's easier to relax when we needed a break from the stress. Our attitudes towards life in general have changed because we are now able to calm down and relax when needed. I'm not a pothead, nor am I a lazy stoner. I am an undergraduate student at PSU in an honor's college with a 3.7 GPA and i'm the president of three clubs. I have been smoking for three years now on a weekly basis and my grades have got better and so has my outlook on life in general. Just some food for thought. If it's not for you then just keep moving forward. "The universe tends to unfold as it should."

Good luck!

Experience