Had a panic attack last night?!

What caused it? God, I don't ******* know. I'm so ******* confused, so ******* overwhelmed. Tonight was alright. I was fine. I was content, just playing the computer. Then my dad came in and he just wanted to know how I was feeling about a "situation" that has been going on. He came in when I didn't expect, and I had actually planned on going to bed. I shared my feelings with him, it was all good . . . nothing that should spur a mental breakdown like this.

I had wandered off to bed. I don't even know myself what was going through my mind during that. I sat in bed, read a paragraph or two of a book, and then I turned off the light. Then my brain just shut off.

I don't know if I was dreaming. I must have been. Somehow, it felt like I could hear all of the surroundings around me, but I was still in such a deep trance. It was like my mind was split into two different consciouses. I woke up sudden and alert, and I had no idea what just happened. I had spaced out completely. Was I still awake? What was going on?

Someone came out of my dad's room, either him or his girlfriend, and they went into the kitchen . . . and turned off the light. The sun isn't up yet. It's completely dark. And I don't know what through my mind. I still don't know now, for that matter. I lost sense of my surroundings. I lost my sense of self, my sense of being, all in that moment. I didn't know what I wanted or what I needed. I just sat up, and I sobbed madly to myself and wildly glanced around the room, not even knowing what I was looking for.

It was about 5AM when that happened, and I didn't fall asleep until 10AM. I slept until 4PM today. I'm still feeling strange. I've been experiencing very small bouts of derealization and depersonalization, on and off. (I have to stop now, but I'll edit more later if this is still here.)