Question:
Can you get life back on track after drugs?
This is a really odd question and I'm sorry, but basically I'm 25 years old and for the past 6 years I was battling with serious drug issues. I believe I only got away with it for so long because I was so good at covering it up.. I would go to work on a morning high (I work in marketing), leave work high, then in the evening take something to send myself to sleep. I'd repeat this pattern often. I became incredibly efficient at covering my back. Just before xmas last year I became quite ill due to a long time not looking after myself and ended up in hospital. My work was great and gave me a chance to get clean, and so I did. It was hard, but nowhere near as hard as it is now, living a sober life. I'm incredibly bored, even though I'm back at work, I miss being high. I've tried to replace drugs with other things such as exercise with no success (I dont care what anybody says, the exercise rush is completely not the same!) and I'm thinking 'what the hell do people do in everyday life if they don't take drugs??' Thats such an immature thought I know and a lot of people out there would think I was a complete child but everyday felt like I was living life on the edge. Even a mundane ride out to see a client would feel like the most exciting task in the world. The only thing I'm really into now is painting (used to do it a lot when i was younger) which I do on an evening. However drugs still consume a lot of my spare thoughts, and I just don't know how to get rid of that. I just feel incredibly empty, like an important piece of my life has been taken away even though I know I couldnt continue the way I was, and I know its very early days but I feel like I'll never experience self-assurance again. Sorry this is so long, but I was hoping that anybody out there with similar experiences might get in touch and recommend ways to help yourself. I'm very alone right now, non-using friends can find it very difficult to understand. Ok, thanks if you managed to read till the end. :)
Answers:
I hear you. The main thing is keep sober and in time things will change new doors open and we awake as we go along this sober path.
Time does help so much.
It is not easy, but if life was so good drugging why did you stop??
It's easy to get carried away with emotions that seem more intensified now sober and some things just too plain or really is this all there is?
But in reality you'll end up more fulfilled if you just keep going on this path, A fulfilment that does not only last as long as a high etc. You will be more inwardly right.
It not easy, but to go back isn't either. The only person you are fooling is yourself. We can all play games and fool the world but whats the point if you can't be honest with yourself!
Take care, this phase will pass.
It is nearly impossible to get your life back on track and most people jump off bridges.
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