HEELP ME!! TOO OBSESSED WITH PEOPLE'S JUDGEMENT!!?!
Question: HEELP ME!! TOO OBSESSED WITH PEOPLE'S JUDGEMENT!!?
I had aspergers syndrome since little...and people always noticed I am not normal,(EVEN my father doesn't accept how I am and made me feel very uncomfortable with myself and others) and "unfortunately" I am very attractive which makes it more difficult to people to understand me....They are attracted by my appearance but at the same time pushed away by my strange behaviour. I have managed to make two friends at school but I have to try really hard to be ok, because I know that in reality I'm different..
Now this year lots of people, especially at school, tell on me, and are always labelling me...gay, strange, crazy...and they have been really annoying me, and they do not know my condition, so they continue doing it, and I'm really getting sick of them...Now, my friends noticed that not only at school, but even people I don't know begin labelling me...I think the problem is that I attract people and when they see me they expect me to be in a certain way, but I'm totally different from that, so they start labelling me, like I have the wrong type of personality...
Lately, as even my friends confirmed that a lot of people tell on me (most of them), I have become obsessed with people talking on me. Everytime I hear someone saying something that I can't understand exactly what they're saying I think they are talking about me...in fact sometimes they really do, but other times they don't....now my mind is automatically perceiving every whispered comment as something about me....for example I am always thinking that they're saying I'm crazy...and I'm really scared that I may be in fact going crazy..and that most people are against me and may do something to get rid of me because I am not how they want me to be, so I may be really annoying them and make them hate me with my behaviour, and obviously I do not appear how I am supposed to be, and I am getting really sick of this, because I know I am not like how I am supposed to be, but I can't do anything to change it...
Should I tell someone about my condition, or if they know it my friends will abandon me?? Also how can I remove these obsessions that they are talking about me (I know they might not be saying about me, but still that's how I am automatically thinking they are) and that someone will not hurt me??
Now this year lots of people, especially at school, tell on me, and are always labelling me...gay, strange, crazy...and they have been really annoying me, and they do not know my condition, so they continue doing it, and I'm really getting sick of them...Now, my friends noticed that not only at school, but even people I don't know begin labelling me...I think the problem is that I attract people and when they see me they expect me to be in a certain way, but I'm totally different from that, so they start labelling me, like I have the wrong type of personality...
Lately, as even my friends confirmed that a lot of people tell on me (most of them), I have become obsessed with people talking on me. Everytime I hear someone saying something that I can't understand exactly what they're saying I think they are talking about me...in fact sometimes they really do, but other times they don't....now my mind is automatically perceiving every whispered comment as something about me....for example I am always thinking that they're saying I'm crazy...and I'm really scared that I may be in fact going crazy..and that most people are against me and may do something to get rid of me because I am not how they want me to be, so I may be really annoying them and make them hate me with my behaviour, and obviously I do not appear how I am supposed to be, and I am getting really sick of this, because I know I am not like how I am supposed to be, but I can't do anything to change it...
Should I tell someone about my condition, or if they know it my friends will abandon me?? Also how can I remove these obsessions that they are talking about me (I know they might not be saying about me, but still that's how I am automatically thinking they are) and that someone will not hurt me??
Answers:
I'd personally suggest you be yourself and ignore the comments around you. If neglect is that much for you to handle see if you can transfer schools are seek friendship that "ACTUALLY" understands and accepts you as is.
Talk to a counselor or someone of higher authority. Obviously if your being picked on or labeled is obviously abuse.
I think people would treat you worse if they knew you had aspires.
smoke some weed that will calm u down