Please can you help? I can't go on living like this.?!
Question: Please can you help? I can't go on living like this.?
I want to kill my self. I know you will either make fun of me, or say "It isn't the answer" or something along the lines of that. i think I know the main reason; its because of my 'friends'. I have known one of them for 7 years (nearly 8) and the other for 3. They used to hate each other (pulling each others hair, slapping each other) so I did my very best to make them like each other. Now they are best friends and make fun of me all the time. They say my hair is greasy (I wash everyday, and it doesn't feel greasy) that I am ugly and 'big'. They are both kind of short and I am freakishly tall and disgustingly skinny (I kind of went a little anorexic last year because they kept calling me large, and fat) I have wavy, mud-coloured brown hair and greeny-bluey eyes, a red face, red hands and sometimes red legs. I was good at school work until they made fun of me and now the teachers hate me, call home and 3 teachers called me abusive and I havent even spoken to two of them. I tried to make up the work and get good marks but now the teachers have branded me as a 'abusive student' because my head of house sent round an email warning every teacher. I only defended my so called friends when my form tutor accused them of something i was sure they didn't do and she envolved my head of house.
I am ugly, and every time I look in the mirror, I cry. I fancy a boy way out of my league, who would rather die than go out with a loser like me.
I know you will say find some new friends, but where? I have asked to move school, and thats not possible. I have asked to move tutor groups, and they are all full up. I can't go to clubs after school because I am loaded with homework, and I have to clean and tidy our house. All the girls in our class are with my two 'best friends'.
I don't know what to do. I already cut my self... but i can't even do that right :'(.
please help...I don't know what to do.
Answers:
you poor thing. I remember being in high school...at the time your there you think that is life..school is the world. You don't know any better though! Your at school from the age of 5ish and your there until your 16 (atleast)...long time! It sounds like your in a difficult situation..but I'm not going to go down the road of please don't hurt yourself, because I think you sound smart enough to know that won't get you very far. You mentioned that two friends of yours have turned against you and are making fun of you..some people can be so cruel! It sounds like you have put up with this for some time aswel, sadly I can only suggest a way that will make this stop, but I can't do it for you. Ok so I'll let you in on a little secret I already know about your 2 friends without meeting them, they make fun of you because it makes them feel good! It makes them feel above you to do it, it makes you look stupid & them look super cool! You are obviously showing that what they are saying hurts you..because if you didnt show it hurt it wouldn't be happening. Next time they say something show them that you couldnt care less what they say about you or what they think about you. over time they will become bored calling you things that isnt bothering you so they will stop! waalah!! Try keeping positive, smiling & cheerful & new friends will soon come your way, people like to be around happy people. As for the boy you like..trust me...there's many more to come :) You are tall and thin..this kind of figure is ideal for becoming a model...are models ugly because of their hieght & being freekishly thin? uuhhm nah! I bet your georgeous huni you just need to see it. take care
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