Do you think it's weird that I feel free because my boyfriend committed sui!
Question: Do you think it's weird that I feel free because my boyfriend committed suicide?
I was upset it about for a while but right when school started up again, as I'm coming closer to graduation, I am exicted that I can move away from this rural town, away from his shoddy house, and away from the responsibilities I have had here. I have been living in his house and plan to until May when I graduate. It is has been so nice being alone in the house when before I had to share it with another person and have the responsibilities of helping to keep it clean. Now I can dance to music in the kitchen while I cook!
Things have been nice because the family paid for his funeral and are having me stay to "manage" the house until they sell it. So I have the whole place to myself and don't pay for anything.
I am so excited about my life now when I can work as an RN, move to the suburb of a large city, go to nightclubs to eat candy and to dance. I picture myself doing things I wouldn't have ever done if my boyfriend were here or if I had kids as baggage, lol!
Do you think this feeling is weird? I feel so free!
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Mmm...it might be a little crass, and I wouldn't go shouting it from the rooftops, if I were you (OK, I know you're not!), but it sounds like this wasn't a very healthy relationship. First indicator: he committed suicide. I'd be willing to bet you found yourself "nursing" someone you thought you would be partnering with. Yeah, I understand why you feel free.
You're wiser now, I hope about your next choice in guys. Just keep assuring his family he was a great guy and you miss him, up until the day you move out.
Yes. You sound very selfish. You could have had all those things without the loss of your boyfriend's life. You could have broke up with him. It's your own fault if you felt "stuck" at a "shoddy house".
I think it's sick that anyone would ever find any joy in the death of another.
Well I think it'd be bad to wallow in the past, you gotta move on.
I dont think you are but after your boyfriend commits suicide I dont think you should be in the OH WELL LIFE GOES ON kinda mood but you gotta keep goin.
Sounds like your just "over it" not to be blunt but it really sounds like if anyone was as blunt as they could be towards this you really wouldn't care.
cherish it
I don't think it's totally weird, just insensitive. I mean, I can understand about you wanting you're independence and all, but couldn't you have just broke up with him? Did you ever realize that you could've had a different life before he took his? I really do feel happy for you, you're life is set out in front of you, I just think you shouldn't be parading that it's this way because your boyfriend killed himself.
Sorry for your loss, but I personally think it's a good thing to pick things back up early to get yourself together, unless you felt "thank god that ****** died", you'd have some trouble then...
I like seeing people like that. Although it was mostly fiction too many people break down to the point where they can't even function normally and they themselves take that route...but what's done is done, time to move on, right?