I want bad things to happen to others?!

I would venture to guess it goes back to your childhood environment. You may be transferring feelings about yourself onto others. Maybe you should make a journal on your life to see what might trigger these thoughts. A member of my family has this issue, tho she is very young. It stems from the trauma of movies that no child should be watching. On one hand she is scared of everything it seems, and on the other hand she is wishing the worst on others. Yet if it came right down to the nitty gritty she would be the most emotional if it did happen. Another point in her life is the violent threats and actions her mom had for a while before she got some help. Just sharing some thoughts. One thing you may want to try is to close your eyes and think about something bad actually happening to someone you love very much. See how that strikes you emotionally.
We live in a world today where empathy is not felt as much as it should be. Unfortunately we live in a I ME world. I said allot! Hope it helps a little. Also spend some time at a good book store cafe or the library. Whatever your issue is, you have the power to control it and change it forever. When I am full of anger and negative thoughts, I talk to God. I believe in the light and the darkness, so I pray to be guided to the light and the walk. Good luck always in your search for you.

because you're probably a person of drama...maybe you should be a doctor...on the flip side how would you feel if someone wished bad on you? or if there was an artery clogged in your leg and it was a possibility of your leg being amputated (cut off). go ahead and cut it off so it can juice up the situation right? or that they found possible organisms of HIV in your body.....go ahead and give diagnose him with FULL BLOWN AIDS to make it more interesting.....think about it

I do that too but also wish for good results. Im just so used to the negative so now i look for it. You have a bad life?