advice please? depressed talk to teacher?!
Question: Advice please? depressed talk to teacher?
I've been depressed for a while now, i'm 16.
i've had a pretty naff past and i can't be bothered to go into detail about it all, it basically involves family deaths, alcoholism and trauma etc.
I'm trying to move on from my past though, i don't see the point in dwelling on it anymore, sure i'll always remember those horrible times but i've gotta try to move on.
My Dad is no longer in the country, he's an alcoholic so it's good that he's not around as i'm trying to concentrate on my exams and although he made my life hell i still love him, he's my dad after all and i worry, he's almost 60 and would drink litres of vodka daily which drove our family apart, it's now estranged which was hard as a kid.
So i put my trust in my mom, turns out she was having an affair and then got married behind my back, so where could i put my trust?
Now she's got a house with her new man, my dad's not in the country and i'm living with my brothers. I visit a few days a week but it's so crazy, it's all happened so quickly, i know things change but it was a matter of months until my life has transformed (not necessarily in a good way)
I developed anxiety during my childhood which i still have symptoms and recurrences of and i now also have social anxiety which makes life hell.
I now have got into the state where i feel like utter S*it every day, i wouldn't say i'm necessarily suicidal but i do think 'what's the point?' and how easy it would be just to die.
I did self harm for a few months on and off but my scars have healed and i've stopped, who knows if i'll start again, i could say to myself i wont, but can you really stop yourself? same with my smoking, i stopped, but stress got the better of me.
I have no motivation, i'm constantly irritable and tired even if i have a good nights sleep-although i can go through phases of insomnia, i feel dizzy and light headed and snappy, , i find myself having severe mood swings, although recently it's mostly been bad moods, i can only see the negative outlook on life and don't acknowledge the future.
But i WANT to talk to someone, to try to relieve some stress but with the anxiety it's so hard :/
people are like ''just go and say ...'' but it's not that easy, i feel like i need them to ask me first but when they do i just pretend i'm fine. I don't know what to do :/
This is a teacher i respect and like and i'm pretty sure she likes me, we can have a laugh and she shows concern and has questioned my happiness a couple of times but as i said, i'll just say ''i'm fine''
Also if i ever get round to talking to her, what shall i say? i don't want to make it awkward, im aware i shouldn't being up self harm as she'll have to contact someone else and i don't know what i should cover with her? i don't want her opinions on me to change.what shall i do? have yu ever had this experience? I'm just feeling so unbelievably down, and i really like her (not in some stalker lezzy way!) and she said she can see i've changed and i know that too, i can't function :/
Do you think that me confiding in her is a way of having a parent figure that hasn't been present in the past few stages of life? im so confused.
please help :/
i've had a pretty naff past and i can't be bothered to go into detail about it all, it basically involves family deaths, alcoholism and trauma etc.
I'm trying to move on from my past though, i don't see the point in dwelling on it anymore, sure i'll always remember those horrible times but i've gotta try to move on.
My Dad is no longer in the country, he's an alcoholic so it's good that he's not around as i'm trying to concentrate on my exams and although he made my life hell i still love him, he's my dad after all and i worry, he's almost 60 and would drink litres of vodka daily which drove our family apart, it's now estranged which was hard as a kid.
So i put my trust in my mom, turns out she was having an affair and then got married behind my back, so where could i put my trust?
Now she's got a house with her new man, my dad's not in the country and i'm living with my brothers. I visit a few days a week but it's so crazy, it's all happened so quickly, i know things change but it was a matter of months until my life has transformed (not necessarily in a good way)
I developed anxiety during my childhood which i still have symptoms and recurrences of and i now also have social anxiety which makes life hell.
I now have got into the state where i feel like utter S*it every day, i wouldn't say i'm necessarily suicidal but i do think 'what's the point?' and how easy it would be just to die.
I did self harm for a few months on and off but my scars have healed and i've stopped, who knows if i'll start again, i could say to myself i wont, but can you really stop yourself? same with my smoking, i stopped, but stress got the better of me.
I have no motivation, i'm constantly irritable and tired even if i have a good nights sleep-although i can go through phases of insomnia, i feel dizzy and light headed and snappy, , i find myself having severe mood swings, although recently it's mostly been bad moods, i can only see the negative outlook on life and don't acknowledge the future.
But i WANT to talk to someone, to try to relieve some stress but with the anxiety it's so hard :/
people are like ''just go and say ...'' but it's not that easy, i feel like i need them to ask me first but when they do i just pretend i'm fine. I don't know what to do :/
This is a teacher i respect and like and i'm pretty sure she likes me, we can have a laugh and she shows concern and has questioned my happiness a couple of times but as i said, i'll just say ''i'm fine''
Also if i ever get round to talking to her, what shall i say? i don't want to make it awkward, im aware i shouldn't being up self harm as she'll have to contact someone else and i don't know what i should cover with her? i don't want her opinions on me to change.what shall i do? have yu ever had this experience? I'm just feeling so unbelievably down, and i really like her (not in some stalker lezzy way!) and she said she can see i've changed and i know that too, i can't function :/
Do you think that me confiding in her is a way of having a parent figure that hasn't been present in the past few stages of life? im so confused.
please help :/
Answers:
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That was a lot to write for one specific question...It's like you said you weren't going to get into it, but then you got into it. Anyway. Write her a thorough letter about your feelings, and whatever it is you want to say to her. When you present it to her, ask her to read the whole thing before she speaks.