Depressed and death? Help only 15?!

I'm here if you want someone to talk to. You should never think suicide as an option.
I had severe depression a little less than a month ago when my best friend's youngest daughter (age 14) passed away from being hit by a drunk driver. (RIP Samantha 1/24/2011)
I was like you, I thought nothing was worth doing and I couldn't try anymore. She was like my own daughter, she practically lived at my house.
It just takes some talking.
I know I'm not in the same situation as you, and you feel like you're all alone nobody would ever understand, you feel llike nobody cares and theres a awkward gap and whole in you and you feel you can't motivate yourself to do simple tasks because you're mind in wrapped in these feelings and emotions.
Your pain your having is probably related to your depression, when i was depressed I know my body ached all over.

Just don't give up, never let someone tell you your not worth it. Never let people's words get to you, never fear that you're not loved (You are!).

I know that no amount of words will heal your pain. But I am available to talk if you need it.
Often times when your depressed you start thinking of every single thing bad in your life.

Never give up on life, God put you on this earth for something and I know He wouldn't want you to throw it all away and hurt yourself.
You might think suicide is your best option, but how would you feel knowing how much your family will suffer? Having known a 14 year old girl that passed away, I KNOW it's really not worth it, her own mother has made suicide attempts because of it, my best friend!
You wouldn't want your mother and father to feel the way you are feeling now, would you?
Because that's all you would be doing.

Please, talk to someone, tell your councilor, tell your favorite teacher, tell your cousin, tell a stranger, tell a therapist (although that would require you talking to your parents about it, and I know you don't want to do that, nobody will force you), Tell your dog, tell your cat, TELL SOMEONE! Please.

Last month I would go over to my best friend's house everyday and tell her to write exactly everything she was feeling on a piece of paper (sometimes she had wrote 4 pages worth) and the things you write doesn't even have to make sence.. JUST WRITE! Once that is done, burn it.
Burn away those feeling, burn away the pain. I know it sounds silly, but it really helps people vent with the security that nobody else will read it.
It helps, it really does.

talk to someone, write.

I'm here if you need someone to talk to, I'm a great listener and just recently learned how to go through depression (But i wish I hadn't)

I pray you never do anything to hurt yourself, You're in my prayers, just know someone does care.

my email: slammersmango@aol.com

Personal Experience

Death is NEVER the answer. Just STOP!!! And think before making actions. If you kill yourself you will go to hell. Tell Jesus your problems and you will feel better. He will take care of them. Smile to make new friends. :)

Please don't kill yourself!!!! I'm 14 and I think you have your whole life ahead of you!!! :) smile! Jesus Loves you!!!! He watches over you evry day

Dong even think about killing yourself!!!!!!!!!!!!! That is the worst thing you could do in this situation!!!! Depression is tough but the only thing you can do is seek for good friends!

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I have never experienced this before readimg this brought me to tears im sorry i cant help

Hey, if you want you can email me at jacksonnicole71@yahoo.com, I'm 15 too and I don't judge so if you wanna vent or just talk I'm here!

i think your going to have to black people who live in a mostly white area seem to have this problem since the diversity is not large and it's hard to find people who would understand the problems that you would go through on a day to day bases try talking to your mom and dad if anything like killing yourself should be a last resort you know (not to sound do idk but yeah) so try talking to your mom and dad about how you feel you don't have to say that you feel like killing yourself but that the place that you are now is just not the best place to be at the moment. and it would be great if you guys could move to where you could interact with people of your color so you can let your aggression out once in awhile
holding it in is the worst thing you could possible do to yourself so try everything before you try to kill yourself and try to keep your head up it's almost over

been there

Well i think you can talk to your parents.Most teens think of their parents as against them.
This isn't true in most cases,or talk to a relative.In 2-3 years this foolishness is gone.
Today calling another a racial slur is a crime,call the police if you have to.
Do not let others ignorance ruin your life,they are fools.
Finally see about home schooling or a transfer.death is no a solution.
If you think enough,there always is a better outcome.
take care..bless you

It is your job to make yourself better. You need to speak to a doctor, a mental health professional ASAP about this. Be brutally honest about what's going on in your head.

Find something that is fun or interesting to you. I highly suggest something physical, like a sport or exercise. It is common knowledge that exercise is THE EASIEST WAY to lift depression! It gets feel-good hormones flowing, increases confidence, and is just a good way to have fun. Yoga literally rescued me from depression. It completely turned my life around. Yoga may or not be the thing for you, but I suggest you try it out... and keep trying new things out until something clicks!

I attempted suicide at your age. Thankfully, I survived. Honestly, the second I woke up in the hospital bed, I was SO GRATEFUL to be ALIVE!! And now, I can't even remember what the hell was getting me down so badly.

You will be out of school very soon, sweety. The best thing you can do to deal with bullies is build up your confidence, find something that gives you peace, or is meaningful to you, and shrug off the name-calling, taunting, etc. A bully is really a weak, very insecure person inside - the bully-behavior is a mask they wear to hide their own insecurities. Remind yourself of that whenever they bother you. Take control of that situation by IGNORING it and laughing it off! If you don't let them get to you, they will give up eventually.

Suicide is not the answer. You are so very young, and there is so much beauty in this world... find it, see a Doctor, and eventually move on with your life... there is a lot left to live!