need some advice or opinion can't decide myself?!

I'm 22 from brooklyn new york and I have depression and anxiety.I'm a person that say too much home and had suffer alot in the computer that I think I harm my eyes it looks sleepy and dark on the bottom.I don't think I,m living like a normal young man and I,m concern about my life style the way how I,m living with no friends,education,money,and jobs.I used to take colzempam 0.5 mg but I,m out of it since the last summer now I take effexor xr 3.37mg and I had to renew my medication so now I'am in a waiting list again to see a therapy and a psychiatrist um its had been a week that I haven't took effexor xr because I want to be out of it and I panic and it wasn't pretty good on sunday but I seem to be ok.On these days I been waking up asking around my area looking for jobs because is wanna the things that I could think off to keep me busy outside and the kind of job that I'm looking for is retail sales and fast food.I was thinking of working part time and work as a ups package handling part time than go to a cuny college I could still go when I turn 24 or 25.For trade school there are some that you need to paid and I'm lost on that one because I don't know what to do and where to search I get a hard time searching but I have to try.So what to you think is my way is better? there is one thing that I won't feel good about myself is that in retail sales and fast food places around my area there are people that are more older than me and I'm not going to feel good because I suppose to be with people in my youth on the other hand its a job and I could get paid but I can't decide any advice? So there you have it people I just go outside for a purpoes like looking for an job other than that I stay home and I realize that the was call limited myself feel even more down that I should go outside even alone.I really don't have any interest in anything not even in shows or movies