Depression once again, please help!?!


Question: Depression once again, please help!?
okay, i'm 13, and i've been depressed since july 2009. It was over a huge guilt trip that i had been going through for years, i paniced and eventually told my mum. Then i felt guilty about everything i could think of that was bad, that i had done. My worries and anxiety's got worse, and so my mum took me to the doctors knowing i had depression, and he got me a councellor. But it would take 6 months for me to be able to go to the councellor. In the end i turned her down because i felt better, but it got worse, and my worries got more complex, like am i being possessed. I had another one, i worried if this world and everything i see real? or just an illusion or simulation, it went away, but now it's come back. When i worry about this, i feel like i'm physically in a bubble, i go light headed and everything just goes weird, as if it's fake and not really there. It's scary, because it's hard to escape the worry. I also worry when i look in the mirror sometimes, i can't get my head around that it's me, that body that's being controlled, even me that's thinking? is it actually me that's thinking, it's hard to understand without knowing what i'm going through. I feel helpless, alone, when i think of my childhood, like in primary school, i feel so depressed because i was normal and happy then, now im messed up, i have these worries that trouble my reality and everyday life. i cant lead a normal life like this. i feel so messed up... i feel so messed up, confused, alone, lost, helpless, in dispare, you name it... that even when my mum practically knew something was up a few weeks back, and when she was questioning me whilst hugging me to tell her what was up, saying she needed to trust me when i said i was fine, i knew it was the perfect time to tell her, but something was holding me back, it was like this wall, standing there, so i couldnt tell her, like i'm not in control of my mind to tell her anymore... i really don't know what to do, i can't tell her, it's just like a wall standing in the way of me telling her. What do i do, i'm so confused, terrified, like i can't explain how i am anymore, and detatched from reality (slightly literally) in my mind. I looked on facebook, went back to when i first got facebook, which was around 2 years ago, and in the first few months of having depression, my status's were cheesey and innocent, i wasn't as messed up and crazy as i am now at all. I feel like i've changed and become ALL depression. I've just had a good 3-4 days without seriously worrying too much, but i've just become depressed again, i've just begun worrying again, like i thought, i'm still depressed and it's not gone, i can't escape. I think, the world is pointless, life is just a bunch of senses, emotions ect. The technology is too complex and crazy to be real, the world can't be real. Also, the teacher kept me behind to have a word with me, and when she was talking to me, i started panicing, thinking, it can't be my conciounce she is talking to, it can't be me that she wants to talk to. Also one more thing, i'm going to a theme park in 2 weeks, i want to go on the big roller coasters, but i don't want my light headed type affect to get in the way on the rid, another thing is, I also feel really confused with who i am anymore. please help me. or give me some advice about all of this?? Thankyou

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Why do you worry so much?
Any ways i know some ways
1.every morning listen to mild music
2.think about good things and spend your more time in a garden or a park
3.do something that you like
4.try to help others it will make you feel better
5.don't spend your time alone get some friends with you
6.and watch funny cartoons in t.v.




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