have you ever lost material items and its brought on a sudden depression?!

i dont own many material possession because i survive only on benefits , i have an obsessional disorder to which causes me to obsess about owning enough material possessions , theres lots of material possessions i want , but sadly dont own because i cant afford .

in my obsessions , i have to own material possessions in order to be happy, not only that , the material items have to be perfect and flawless or else it causes me depression , which means , if i buy a jumper and a little bit of stitching is out of place , it will causes me depression and i will be compelled to '' buy another one '' until the item is perfect.

an obsessional nightmare.

just tonight , ive come back from the gym , and to my horror , i realized ive lost a pair of new puma sports shorts and my Adidas goggles for the swimming pool .

ive left them there at the gym by mistake , but i brought back my t shirt and other pair of shorts fortunately .

but if tomorrow , i phone or go to the gym and they haven't been handed in or their lost - i will panic and worry and become depressed and feel compared to buy a new pair online . to replace the lost shorts , so i have another pair immediately.

can anyone relate to this scenario or just know ways to deal with it ?

thanks