had enough of life, reached my limit? trying to make things better..?!

Great job at wanting to turn things around, stepping up, and taking charge.

The main thing to start doing, is not invest in negativity, your abusive fiancee, needs to go, if he can't contribute positively, you don't need him, you have enough to worry about. Same with family & friends, if they're a positive influence, they truly are your family/friends, if they're negative, you should limit contact, because it's a distraction, in a bad situation, and you shouldn't waste your energy.

Be clear, and outspoken about what you think of things, and how you feel, without attacking people, or being confrontational, truth is the best weapon, to create a calm, and positive atmosphere.
If someone calls you stupid for getting into this situation, tell 'em that it hurts when they say that, and explain how easy things like that can happen, and how you've given all you had, trying to keep it on track, but it just slipped through your fingers, and how frustrating it is, to see things go bad, but being unable to fix it.
Then tell 'em to think about it, everybody had situations where if the coin drops the wrong way, you're lost, you just had the bad luck it did.


And then make a step-by-step plan, of getting things back together. Use realistic, and compact goals(don't go right for the white-picket fence, go for finding some support(even if it's just a friend, or positive relative to talk to, just ask if you can vent to them, because it's important not to keep it in), finding a job, and a place to live, those kind of practical steps).

And (I know this sounds odd) but try and fit in 15mins of pregnancy exercises every day, you can find 'em on YouTube(preferably twice a day, but once would be alright too), because the stress is messing up your hormones(extra since you're pregnant), and having a physical relief every day will help you stay more relaxed, and loose(which is good in case you do end up in a confrontation, because when you're loose, you can maintain calm-dominance easier, and like I said, be outspoken, and clear, without being confrontational).

Good luck, and stay strong, you can do it.

your doing the right thing moving in with your mum, she will be a support to you and the baby. You should also see a doctor (Psychiatrist) about anything that troubles to be sure you are coping and also talk to a psychologist. Talking with people like this about your problems and also doctors helps, but always remember if you are not happy with the treatment/advice to seek a second opinion.

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my boss fired me for mental health issues... i got paid super... and i had life insurance and tpd insurance under my super. so i got a 'big' payout. i know what's it's like... i have my gf and my gf only. i can't stand people. i hide on here... behind my computer. i've seen a psych and a counsellor for 3 years... all the meds u can think of... i think some people can't be saved.

it's weird... everyone thought the money would make everything better.... as if. i don't care about the money.

i live out of guilt for my gf and our chihuahua. i know that when i die... it's not going to be natural or an accident.

i guess u are an aussie too.. since u mention centrelink. i am on dsp. it's like 600 a f/n... don't get me wrong... i love that we get paid by the gov. i know many places i would get nothing. but with rent and elect and phone and car costs... u have nothing left... u rely on charities... it's not good.

like u... going from a job to nothing... i had to wait 6 months before i could claim... then i worked sooooooo hard on that claim... it got approved in two months.

i feel like i'm breaking too... i feel like i bring my gf down.

my suggestion is... did u have help with the claim...? i mean besides the psych and counsellor reports... i went to the salvos and a free financial guy helped me... he was amazing.