Somethings really wrong with me? I've been like this for months.?!


Question: Somethings really wrong with me? I've been like this for months.?
I'm 14. Im in 8th grade, and I have a good life / family and get a lot of what I want.

I don't do drugs or have sex. But on and off through-out the day/week/month/year I'm kinda like depressed.

Sometimes during the day I'm fine and happy, but other times I just want somethin bad to happen to me.

When I'm alone I think about myself being raped, or beaten or etc. (horrible, I know). And often times when I'm in my "depressive mood" I can't put my feelings into words.

I just feel like I want bad things to happen to me, and I really really want it to happen. But when I'm in my good moods which Is maybe 55% of the day I'm just myself & happy.

And I hang out with friends all the time & I play volleyball 3 or 4 times a week on a team - and when I'm doing all that I occasionally think about my 'negative thinking' but sometimes it pops into my mind.

I don't understand why I think like this. Help? I've been like this for a couple months. And please don't tell me to talk to a doctor/counselor/parent. Thanks.

Answers:

Hummm - well - these are called "intrusive thoughts" - and if I was your psychologist, I might want to talk about anytime you can remember that you've been abused. Of course if you were abused, you wouldn't have to remember this. It would be living on in your unconscious mind.

OR - it's possible that your consciousness is just changing right now. It will change a LOT between 10 and 20 years old. And as consciousness changes, you will often start fooling with possibilities - like - What would happen if somebody tried to kill me and had me all tied up and I couldn't defend myself.... Stuff like that.

Everybody does this to some degree - it's just the random thoughts of the mind.

OR - abusive stuff could have gone on in your household... You just have to keep your eye open for that possibility.

Mostly - it's ok to think all sorts of horrible thoughts as long as you don't act on them and try to hurt somebody else. Thinking is OK. It's everybody's right to think anything they want.



Dont worry , ur not a freak Im like dat too, but I usually imagine that Im the one doing the beatin lol. Its ok to be sad and happy , cause if ur happy 24/7 then u must be a freak. Just figure out what lacks in ur life and try to get it so ur life can be whole ;) ull be fine , music is usually what gets me through hard times



Hey, it's feeling miserable that's causing this. For example, I usually do stuff, but sometimes, I just feel worthless. Anyways, it'll blow over. Its all puberty, trust me. Make it through puberty and college, and the rest of life is a lot easier (as in a few less problems, and the major ones you learn to acknowledge)



That reminds me when i was a teen i did the same thing it bothered me so much that i seen a therapist. He said i had terrible thoughts because it was easier for me to think of these things then the things that were going on with me in my own life at the time which was a bad relationship with my boyfriend and my mother who was increasingly drinking.



well when im feeling sad i just think about somethings that made me laugh like a youtube video or something in a book i read and i think back to it and sometimes i quote it and it makes me laugh




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