Question:
Why do i hear things noone else does, and think everyone can hear what im thinking?
I'm constantly on the edge of my mind, i dont know what to do, so i guess this is my last hope as best put... i can never think straight, my mind jumps from one idea to the next so spontaneously i cant tell if they are the same idea or different ones, i hear noises and voices I've never hear before and often see things that i think can't be real but i can never tell if they are, and when i ask someone thats around, if anyone is around, if they heard or saw that, they look at me like i'm a raving lunatic. anytime i see a girl i think is pretty on the street and i start thinking of talking to her, i start to think everyone in the world can hear my thoughts, like its being broadcast for the sick enjoyment of others, i cant walk into a room without concentrating on making my mind go blank, and when i do i hear things unreasonable to that place in time. i lose track of days at a time, and often forget essential things, such as keys, wallet, my shoes have been forgotten i don't know how many times, i just feel as though i'm teetering on the middle of a millimeter thick wall and i'm always about to lose balance, i can't rationally pose a question to friends without them asking me to clarify what feels like 60000 times. is it all in my head or is the world always out to make me look like the bad guy? anytime i try to sympathize with a friend they look at me like i back handed them with a brick, and then when i try to explain that i'm trying to feel as they do they act as if i killed there mother or something. i don't feel sad when major things happen, but if the most minor thing goes off course, i flip **** at it. i constantly think of death, i watch TV and all that goes through my mind is thoughts of what the actors would look like dead or tortured or dismembered. i walk through the houses of friends and have to divert my gaze from pictures on the wall, lest i want to see my friends with their chest ripped open and their bowels laying on the floor, and the only horrifying part of it i see, personally, is not the image of my friends dead, but the fact i'm not horrified at this sight. i don't even know why i'm writing this, no one on hear will believe me and even if they did, i don't think this can be stopped, what if i'm to remain this way the rest of my life. oh god, that notions is more horrifying to me than children (i find babies to be horrifying, i don't know) that this is how im to live, i think i would rather just die.
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hey buddy, listen, im just like you, well at least i was. All those voices, and seeing things, and stuff like that, I went through everything you did. I went through all the paranoia just like you are going through right now. I had a girlfriend and she left me because I was so paranoid at times I thought she was trying to make me kill myself and messing with my mind and I was even convinced she was satan, literally. BUT i saw a doctor, and they are really not all that bad. Sure they dont know everything but they did help me a lot! What your describing is just what i went through it is called paranoid schizophrenia, but it is 100% treatable! Everything you see and hear and think, including the thoughts of dismembered friends ( i had them too) can go away and its easier than you think! theres nothing wrong with us, we just dont get as much of a certain chemical in our brain as wen need, and if the doctors give us something to help release what were missing, PROBLEM SOLVED! and i am far from a zombie, i am how i wished i always was, me, minus what i wanted to change. Im the same person, but easier to get along with, and a lot less paranoid, nervous, and troubled with the problems you face and i once faced! Take it from somone who knows just what your going through:) Best of luck pal:)<3
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You need to be properly evaluated and diagnosed and treated by a psychiatrist.
24 years psychiatry by profession
I completely and honestly think that you need to speak to a therapist. These things are not healthy.
print out your post and take it with you to see a doctor
Pretty sure no one is reading your mind. I've had weird thoughts like that before too. But you sound like the beginning of a brilliant person. seriously.
Have you tried art, music, science or anything? You seem like the type of person that would come up with spectacular out of the box pieces that would blow minds away.
im not a doctor so you Gould probably google the main symptoms and see what kind of diagnoses pop up. the best to do would be to go see a doctor