What's wrong with me, if anything at all?!
Question: What's wrong with me, if anything at all?
For the last year or so I've been feeling as if I feel nothing. I used to self-harm. There is a rather intense backstory I hate explaining. I don't know. When I'm happy, yeah I'm happy. When I'm depressed I isolate myself from everything and keep eating off the feeling. When I'm bored I get the urge to just kill someone in the most horrific way possible. I dis-like, if not hate most of my family. I'm pretty sure they resent me. My father's told me die lots etc. I have really low self-confidence and self-esteem. (Idk if they're the same thing) I would get help but I'm far too shy and I can't identify anything to go for help about. My only girlfriend has cheated on me 5 times. She's broken my heart many times over but I'm still with her. I just don't know what the hell is wrong with me.
I'm so confused about the way I feel. I feel like there's nothing inside me. My self-worth is immensely low. And keeps being lowered by my father. I have spoken to childline about my home-issues and they suggested that I consider being re-located via Social Services. However I don't want to re-start my whole life. As I have 3 friends who have accepted me for me.
:/ I just don't know.
Is there anything wrong with me?
Answers:
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nothing wrong except the road your on is bumpy, it will smooth out as you go so just be patient, the things that have happened to you can be corrected but remaining positive, low self-confidence and self-esteem can be boosted but you need to work at it so just be positive in the things you do and don't hold on to things you can't change
i think you need to see a councellor. i felt sort of like that at your age and because i didnt get help with my self harming im still doing it now and im 31.
families can be a complete nightmare.even my family members i love i cant relate to well at the moment.
it sounds like you could be depressed.
go and see your gp,i think it is confidential at your age.
i hope things get sorted for you.