I feel like I'm going to cry, help?!

Sweetie, no one is perfect. You should not be trying to kill yourself. You are beautiful, because God makes no mistakes. You're beautiful in every way. Don't let anybody ever tell you you're not. Don't throw up. I used to do that. I was 130lbs. in the 4th grade. Throwing up didn't work for me because nothing came out. And eating less than 200 calories a day will actually make you gain more weight. When you throw up, the acid in your stomach used to digest your food goes up & literally burns holes in your esophagus. Why would you want to do that to yourself? I dropped 40 pounds within about 2 months. I used to eat at night all the time. Truth is, you can eat as much as you want all day if you're active throughout the day. It'll burn all of your calories right up. So just stay a little active, eat throughout the day, and try not to eat anything past... about 7:00. That's how I dropped the 40. Don't try to kill yourself. Sweetie, you might feel so horrible because of what you think you look like. Everyone is beautiful. And you're part of everyone. I always felt like I was so ugly & overweight. But now, I feel beautiful. I'm average size, & I control my weight. I have learned to love myself. Don't call yourself fat. You should always be routing for you, because you deserve it. You're a good person. Don't try and kill yourself. I cannot say that enough. I can tell that you're a good person. Don't commit suicide. Because that's what everyone expects you to do. They push you to the point where you believe you have to. You don't. Stay strong, sweetheart. You're beautiful. Beautiful, beautiful, beautiful. Don't you forget that. You deserve it. God makes no mistakes. He loves you. You're great. You're beautiful. Amazing. Don't forget that.. Don't wory about what others think. Just believe in yourself .. That's where it starts. Dreams do come true. And if your dream is that other people would see you as pretty, then it won't happen if you don't believe it. So believe it, honey. You're beautiful.

Myself

You shouldn't care about what other people say about you, they're not perfect, nobody's perfect!
Here are some things you should do every day:
- Every time you look at yourself in the mirror name 3 things you like about yourself and 3 things you want to improve!
-Go out at least once a day!
-Write down some goals you'd like to achieve in the future!

get a therapist

first off, you will find love. you may not know it but a lot of people look at the personality of a person not apperence. and dont commit suicide. if you kill yourself, you will never find that one love and that one love will never find you. its a lose-lose situation. if you want to lose weight, go to your parents and see if they could get you weight loss surgery or something like that. starving yourself is very bad and can give you a lot more problems in life. if you dont like being "pale", get a tan. it will get better, i promise. just give it time and you will see your life change drasticlly. if you need it, hit me up a email or add me on facebook. Jimmy Lamtman is my name(: my email is jlamtman1@yahoo.com
oh try giving this album a listen---http://www.youtube.com/user/Av3ng3dSev3n…
this album is deep in emotion. its dedicated to their former drummer (and my cousin) Jimmy "the rev" sullivan. this album shows love to anyone who listens to it. it helped me through some very hard times and made me feel loved. hope you get better and hope i helped(:

ive been through it all

I can almost guarantee this depression (I don't know what else to call it honestly)
will turn into frustration or anger. When that happens we tend to want to "nip things in the bud",
so until that time when you finally motivate yourself you have to LOVE YOURSELF!!
In order to feel loved you need to love yourself first!
Find someone you can talk to, Mom, Sister, Brother, ect.
The diet "plan" you chose now will lead to an immediate gain back of the weight you lost.
I have curly hair too and I'm pale also so don't feel alone, I'm 30 pounds over weight but also account for the fact I'm vegetarian and occasionally vegan so I hardly eat and I only eat vegetables and other not so tasty foods.
I sympathize with you, I can't lie about that so I suggest try looking deeper into religions.
I found that they gave me hope and motivated me to do everything I can to be a better person.

Suicide isn't the answer, we're all here to live until our day does come, why not just wait until then? Death is when the body wants to rest, wait until that rest.. to rest.
I am a christian and being a christian is about sharing love with everyone and everything.
Being reborn is accepting your sins and asking for forgiveness. I'm not trying to push religion on anyone but from experience this is my motivation.