If I'm not a masochist then what am I?!
Question: If I'm not a masochist then what am I?
I'm confused...
Okay, I was abused as a kid and it never hurt. I'd be shocked at whoever hurt me (Dad, Mum, etc) but I could easily walk around with the sting (Example: If I got slapped across the face) it never bothered me. I self harm and it's nice. I like the taste of blood (Don't bother lecturing me about medical crap cuz I think it runs in the family) BUT, I could never, ever enjoy the picture of someone hurting me (During sex or whatever...Etc) I don't see the point of it. But if I'm not into it pleasurably then what the hells up? I enjoy hurting myself...!? :/
I don't like scary movies but if I'm crying or in the shower or something I always think of blood and it makes me THINK that my eyes are like...Leaking blood or something. Idk, is it a sadism thing?
Am I just unusual or is it some other 'catagorie'?
God, I sound stupid... :/
Okay, I was abused as a kid and it never hurt. I'd be shocked at whoever hurt me (Dad, Mum, etc) but I could easily walk around with the sting (Example: If I got slapped across the face) it never bothered me. I self harm and it's nice. I like the taste of blood (Don't bother lecturing me about medical crap cuz I think it runs in the family) BUT, I could never, ever enjoy the picture of someone hurting me (During sex or whatever...Etc) I don't see the point of it. But if I'm not into it pleasurably then what the hells up? I enjoy hurting myself...!? :/
I don't like scary movies but if I'm crying or in the shower or something I always think of blood and it makes me THINK that my eyes are like...Leaking blood or something. Idk, is it a sadism thing?
Am I just unusual or is it some other 'catagorie'?
God, I sound stupid... :/
Answers:
you have a high pain tolerace. emo
You may psychological a little obstacles
I don't know, but I think you should seek help to deal with your past a better way.