I know I have issues...but what could it be(10 points Best Answer)?!
Question: I know I have issues...but what could it be(10 points Best Answer)?
I don't have a middle ground. I can be totally happy and carry a conversation then all of a sudden I'll start screaming, breaking, or hitting things/people. I got on probation for damaging property and other things (just got off probation after 2 years last month), so lately if I get upset I...beat myself up. It's weird I know, but it's really starting to do damage. I smashed my phone into my head and I have an imprint of part of it bruised there and a bump. I punch (literally punch) my head and the temple part. Since I can't legally break things or hurt others...I hurt myself. I've always been suicidal, and had drug issues...but I don't know what to do. I've been on tons of meds for bi polar disorder and nothing helped. Some even made it worse. I also have terrible anxiety, my mind wanders and I have terrible images in my head (no ADHD though), and my moods not only switch quickly, but they're very strong. For example, if I'm happy I'm extremely happy. If I'm angry I'm extremely angry. My head is killing me, but I have been having a rough time with my boyfriend so I take it out on me. I thought boarder line personality disorder? I'm on the verge of ending it, and I don't know what to do.
Please, seriously help me. :(
Answers:
no one desereves to feel liek this but im going to tell you that everything happens for a reason and once you get through everthing your going to be really strong, and nothing will ever be able to break you. i have bipolar disorder too although you seem to have it a tad worse i do feel what you wfeel and even though its annoying and upseteing you WILL find your purpose in life
jus remember that those who mind dont matter and those who matter dont mind& never let your head get in the way of your heart.
your beautiful inside and out, just stick it out because you have a purpose<3
My gut tells me you're too busy. Take some time to slow down and think about your emotions and actions. That kind of behavior (acting on impulse or emotion) is common with people who don't take time to contemplate things. It seems like you could benefit from a major life-shift. Perhaps you could join the Peace Corps and broaden your horizons, or join the military and take a whole new direction. What I'm getting at is, it seems you need a serious JOLT to get out of these doldrums.