Help I just cut again?!

Exactly what they said. I'm only 19 and I understand how you feel. When I was a Freshman I was extremely depressed about something for a long time and I felt that was the only way to ease the pain. Luckily I stopped and came to my senses before I left permanent scars. Honestly though, please go to your parents. If they're the problem, or you can't trust them, go to another family member. Don't go to school people about it because they're going to report you and get you thrown into a psych ward. I doubt you belong there.

Just do realize, it's cliche, but it really DOES get better. After I stopped cutting I began to write, and got into photography. If you're into it, play some video games to relieve your stress. Fighting games like Street Fighter, or maybe Call of Duty and shoot some pixels. Anything but what you're doing now. 10 years from now when you have scars all down your arm ,you'll have to explain to everyone you meet why they're there. It's not worth it.

You do need help. I am in your same boat, I said I wouldn't do it anymore but I did it anyway. Seek help.
Telling my parents was the worst thing I ever did. You need help and you know it which is good. If you are close to your parents and you are confident they will not belittle you or freak out on you, then tell them. Otherwise you can seek help on your own. If you are in school (which it kinda sounds like you are) Go to your school nurse or counselor and ask them to recommend you seek therapy. Tell them your concerns but that you don't trust your parents to take you seriously. By law, they cannot tell your parents if you tell them not to. By seeking help you show that you are mature enough that you don't need them for all your decision making.

Cutting can become addictive very fast. Its a vicious cycle but one you can break with help! You CAN be a normal girl. Good luck. If ever you want to talk, I'm just an email away. Others are too.

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Go ahead and tell your parents.. it may be hard to do but trust me, it will be worth it in the long run when they get you help. You'll be a happier person who wont have to cut anymore, and you'll be absolutely shame free :)

Tell you parents for God's sake. Tell them NOW.

send me your pics

Apply consistent, but not extreme pressure to the wound for at least 15 mns with a clean dressing. One form of self help is to learn, and employ emotional distress tolerance techniques; read: Dialectical Behavior Therapy Skills Workbook: Practical DBT Exercises for Learning Mindfulness, Interpersonal Effectiveness, Emotion Regulation, & Distress Tolerance (New Harbinger Self-Help Workbook) by Matthew McKay, Jeffrey C. Wood, and Jeffrey Brantley. Self harm produces opiate like endORPHINs, which, like true opiates such as heroin (diacetyl mORPHINe), make you feel better, but are just as addictive, and you develop tolerance to them, needing to cut more, and deeper, later on, just to get the same effect. Practice a relaxation method, daily, and when needed, such as: (free) http://www.drcoxconsulting.com/managing-stress.html or http://altmedicine.about.com/cs/mindbody/a/Meditation.htm

Tai Chi, Qi Gong, or yoga suits others better. Give the EFT a good tryout, to see if it helps you. It is free via the searchbar at http://www.mercola.com "EFT" & "EFT therapists", or via www.tapping.com (13 free videos). Professional is best. There is a version for use in public places, (if you want to, you can claim to have a headache, as you massage/lightly tap your temples, but you would then be restricted to subvocalising: saying it to yourself in your mind: "Even though I self harm from emotional distress, I deeply and completely accept myself." Later on, most self harmers realise that it is no real solution to their problems; they have to find another way, and then they are faced with a mass of unsightly scar tissue, which they find difficult to explain, and which can adversely affect their social lives, and careers. Dispose of your cutting implements. Use one of the alternatives shown, such as snapping a rubber band against your wrist, or holding an ice cube. Seek therapy, to help you address the actual cause of those problems, rather than using an inappropriate method of treating the symptoms, which others have found, doesn't work, in the longer term, and that leaves behind the extra problem of scarring to deal with, then.

Consider taking up amateur abstract, impressionist, or surrealist art, clay modelling, designing and/or making fashion, or jewellery. Journalling those thoughts, and feelings, poetry, or story writing are some more options.No-one ever has to see them, but you may well surprise yourself at how good you become, with experience. Even if not, and you are totally dissatisfied with every single effort, it will still have served its purpose. Use that emotional energy, and allow it expression, through an activity other than self harm. Keep occupied; multitask, like listening to music while surfing the 'net. Join a support group, such as http://dailystrength.org and go there when you feel the urge to self harm. Books: Self-Harm: A Psychotherapeutic Approach by Fiona Gardner, & Alive and Cutting: A teenager's journey in therapy to understanding her self-harm by Richard Bryant-Jefferies, & Scars That Wound, Scars That Heal: A Journey Out of Self Injury (Live Free) & Stopping the Pain: A Workbook for Teens Who Cut & Self-Injure by Lawrence E. Shapiro & Understanding Self-Injury: A Workbook for Adults by Robin Connors and Kristy Trautmann, from your bookstore, or enter "self harm" at Amazon.com for more media. Because of the association between Borderline Personality Disorder and self harm, view http://www.essortment.com/all/borderlineperso_rnmc.htm and pages G & X at 8m.com, below.

It is a good idea to have an accountability partner; someone you trust and is available anytime, so when you feel like you want to self harm, you call them and talk about why. Advice from an experienced psychotherapist is here: http://au.answers.yahoo.com/question/index;_ylt=ApJxmFKJU10eaPMH4ZfeYX7g5gt.;_ylv=3?qid=20070801184649AA9iH1b&show=7#profile-info-iUKGAgRjaa Hypnosis is merely a heightened state of suggestibility, in which you are better able to communicate with your subconscious mind. 85% of people are suggestible, to some degree, so you could either seek professional hypnotherapy, or, if not an option, more alternatives along such lines are at http://your-mental-health.8m.com/blank_25.html where this came from, with alternatives, self harm hotlines, chat sites & forums on page A. If harming out of depression, (a quiz is at http://psychcentral.com/depquiz.htm ) see pages 3, and B.