Can somebody please help me? I'm trying to get out of a fantasy world?!
Question: Can somebody please help me? I'm trying to get out of a fantasy world?
I am only 15, still, I was 14 when it started, I will be sixteen in just over a month. I left my old school because they kept calling me a mental-freak and 'crazy' and taking the piss out of me, telling me that I should just go die some of them said. everybody questioned it. people kept saying that there was no such thing as the daughter, I guess I knew, but I got so involved with the dreams it became a real thing to me. In all fairness. The little girl was NOT a bad person and I did not see why I had to forget about her. I seem at my worst at night. when I am tired. I turned into a bit of a slag after giving her up, but I will make myself change now. I need help with how I can deal with not having this perfect little girl? Do I really have to forget her? has anybody had something similar to this happen to them? what can i do? I still have her journal under my pillow, I drew pictures of us together, going to heaven. She's not real, But I love her and I cant move on. What should I do?
Thanks, I knew this was long xxxx
btw I ask about baby names in my questions because I really want a child now I lost my not real daughter, but idk what to do....
Answers:
Hmm. Interesting! Sounds like your subconscious was/is reaching out for some deep, meaningful companionship and created this 'personality'. I'd be tempted to strongly suggest this girl in fact represents yourself.. a part of you that craves nurture and unconditional love.. perhaps she's your inner-child.
You sound like a very creative, intelligent & sensitive person with an acute imagination (that's not an insult btw!) that could be very valuable if only channeled in the right way. But so far it's manifesting itself in a very insular, introverted fashion.. which is proving itself as psychologically unhealthy.
I'd want to ask you about your relationships with your parents, from early childhood.. and are you an only child. Do you like your own company, or do you feel lonely?
As for the writing & pictures; I'd set them down now. Put it to bed, so to speak. Or if possible it could be an idea to create a final story, a happy one of merging together and growing up from it. Break free from this inner sanctum as it isn't doing anything very positive for you now. Change it, design the happy outcome yourself.
Otherwise I suggest a little counseling; which may well throw some more light on this if it is a compulsion you've become unhealthily attached to.
15 is a difficult time, hormones and all that. Be gentle with yourself, meditate on things outside of you. Be strong and stay centred.
Peace & best wishes :)x
If she is a comfort to you I don't see what's wrong with it
You cant lose something you never had u just said you know she isnt real dreams have no meaning they are just random junk in ur brain and ur brain wants Someone who wl accept you for who you are when you do find someone u should forget about the imaginary girl you created