WHY am i doing this??(cutting question)?!

Honey, I've been there, read my post on this same section, and trust me you are worth so much more than those pathetic idiots who push you down. Your body and your life is so precious that it is such a waste to ruin it over those nobodies.

But I understand the feeling, I really do and I hope that you come out the other side soon because one day things will begin to be brighter for you. When you don't have to look at the people who make you hurt and feel scared and lonely, don't even have to care whether you ever see them again.

I can't tell you the reasons why you cut, just know that you aren't alone and there are so many people who would want to give you a big hug if they could right now and tell you they've been there too and it gets better.

If it's possible try to change the atmosphere thats around you, I had to leave school and go to college, it seemed like the cowards way out at first but now I know it was the right choice for me, it kept me sane.

Have a word with your doctor, they will send you to someone who you can talk to, get things off your chest that you would never tell anyone else, and tell you why you cut and give you proper advice and support so you feel happier.

Big love from me :)

I seriously had the exact. same. problem.
I'm not even kidding it's identical to yours. Email me lia.vampiretiger@gmail.com
I'm still doing it and stuff and it would actually be kinda nice to talk to someone who understands how I feel to instead of just telling me to "talk to someone".
And I'm 14 btw, not some creepy pedo :P

You cut because you want to relieve your inner pain

I hate to tell you this, but cutting is addicting!

I'm not calling you a bad person, but you need to be aware of what has happened. When you cut, the pain receptors in your skin are activated; the message travels to your spinal cord, and up to the brain. In response, your brain releases endorphins and enkaphilins to dull the pain. You cut when you're stressed out. The burst of endorphins and enkaphilins activate the limbic system, where it's perceived as pleasure and reward. It also relieves the stress. So your brain has learned that if it's being assulted by stress, it will find relief if you cut yourself.

Again. You're not a bad person. In a sense, you're very much normal. Just imagine a scale. On one side, are all the things a person has to deal with: homework, bills to pay, need to walk the dog, lawsuit, divorce. Whatever. All the big things and all the little things, all the challenges, everything that cause stress. On the other side of the scale are laughter, hanging out with friends and family, watching TV, video games, medication, alcohol, tobacco, drugs, etc. All the things that a person uses to deal with the stress or meet the challenges. As long as the scale is in balance, everything is fine. But if, for some reason, the coping resources are not enough, the scale will tip the other way. All of a sudden, life is so painful, that it doesn't seem worth living.

So once more. You're not a bad person. You just found a coping mechanism to save your life. Unfortunately, it's not a very healthy coping mechanism. So I would urge you to please get some help! Go to your regular doctor and tell them everything that happened. They can find a good psychiatrist and therapist for you. You probably already know this, but you're in deep trouble! Cutting will definitely give you relief, but it's also definitely addicting, and the relief is only temporary. So again, please don't delay in getting help. This is very urgent!

you're doing this because you feel angry and alone. you don't like anyone and you think that life is pointless. your parents abandoned you, yeah, but don't think of it like they didn't love you. im sure they did. think of it as "they lost the greatest thing in the world"! and the people calling u all of those names are losers! they all have little girls/boys in them waiting to come out like cry babies. they are insecure freaks who wants power, so they take away yours to gain theirs. the reason you are cutting yourself is because when you think of your parents and those kids, you feel numb, and you want to feel something. so, cutting yourself hurts, and makes you feel pain, but you don't care because you are feeling something. you are not a bad person, your parents lost the best thing they could ever have, and those kids are stupid. there is a reason for everything. God made it that way. if you don't believe in God, thats ok, but i do, and i believe he makes everything happen for a reason. please don't give up hope, or life. people are always there and God is watching over you and has a plan for you. good luck in life, and NEVER, EVER loose hope. cause loosing hope will loose a life. good luck.

Cutting actually releases endorphins in your brain that make you happy. The reason you feel better afterward is because those endorphins push that pain away. But it is only temporary and it NOT a good solution to your problems at all.
Instead of cutting, try exercising. It releases those same endorphins and will make you feel better just as much. Also, it gives you a way to think about your problems and solutions without focusing specifically on the pain you feel.
But more than anything else, you should talk to your grandmother and a doctor. Cutting is a sign of deeper emotional trauma or even depression. Talk to an adult and they can help you get through your situation.
And just remember: no one can make you feel inferior without your consent (eleanor roosevelt)
Whatever people are saying about you, that is no reason to make you doubt yourself or hurt yourself in any way. If people want to talk about you, go ahead and let them. Just find people who are focused on you and have your happiness in mind, and you won't need to worry about people like them that have nothing but bad things to say about you.

Good luck and stay excellent!

Please hun, don't do this to yourself. <3

I'm a self-injurer and it's addicting. It is SO addicting, and you have to stop asap because your brain releases endorphins that make us feel good when pain hits. Which is why you probably feel like cutting is stopping from dying, I feel that way too. But I'm trying to recover. I'm sorry your feeling so down and that you feel as though people are bullying you. Could you talk to a guidance counselor at your school? Or, even a teacher. Anyone from the school that could help you with the bullies. Also, you must try and quit while you can. Please do something to help yourself, dear. Instead of wearing short sleeves tell a close friend what your going through, and get them to hold you accountable. Find someone who you can talk to and just let it all out. Vent to them in ANY way you know how. If you can't find a close friend to vent to, maybe you could try to just write down how you're feeling. Writing has helped me to get through a lot of things. You have to stop cutting you can't do this, it is not good. It's the worst "coping" method out there, believe me, I know.

I'm sorry if I didn't help.

Take care of yourself! <3

It sounds like all these pressures are building up in you causing stress and depression. you cant seem to find a way out and no matter what you do you cant make it stop. you're cutting yourself because you feel it is something that you can control, you decide how much pain you feel and then take it away when you want. the fact that you wear tshirts etc so that the scars are expossed means that you want to stop, but you want someone to tell you to stop so you feel like they care.

i used to feel the same way but believe me it is not worth it. you need to sit down with your grandmother and talk to her about it, tell her how you feel and what you have been doing. you'll soon learn that there is people around you who love you and do care for you. just ignore anyone who isnt prepared to be nice to you for who you are because they themselves have issues and feelings of sadness and jealousy, hence why they lash out at others.

im no professional on this subject but i would like to know that you are going to be ok, so please look online for someone who can help you further.
try this

www.bbc.co.uk/health/emotional_health/

First of all I'm sorry that you have felt like self harming yourself this way. I hope that you will not start doing this regularly. Please get help if you do feel you are addicted to this.

People self harm for all sorts of different reasons, not just 1 common one.

Anger at either yourself or others can be a factor, as can attention seeking.

Most likely though people become addicted to the cutting. The reason for this is that when we are injured our body releases chemicals into our blood stream called endorphins. These are nature's own pain killers. Endorphins also give us a lift in our mood and that is why people who are in low mood find it so attractive, they do actually feel better after they hurt themselves.

Sometimes people do it as a test for ending their lives through blood loss. A few accidentally cut too deep one day and die by "mistake".

It is a serious problem that needs looking after and people can need help to stop. I hate the way that some professionals at doctors surgeries and A&E hospital departments consider it a trivial matter and see the patients as deliberately being there taking up time and attention that a seriously injured or sick patient would deserve more.

If you feel that you have serious issues please consider seeing the doctor and asking for a few counselling sessions.

Good luck.

Okay just calm down most of those people who tell you that your fat and ugly are just jerks with no lives and who are probly insecure about them own self just know that stuff will get better it may seem bleek for now but things will get better trust me but now to your question you cut yourself because its a way of realising stress its pretty weird when you cut yourself something is realised im not sure wat but when its realised it comforts you in some way. I hope this answeres your question