I recently started cutting?!

I recently started cutting?

ok it started a month ago i got really mad and i was in class and i was stressed so i tok a pensil and literaly scratched a chunk of skin off my knucle week later i was under stress and i took a scissor and cut a very deep 1 inch "hole" on my arm i also cut on my legs and recently 3 big deep cuts on my arm and other smaller cuts

my therapist says im doing it to get myself psycchally and mentally away from reality (im a former benzo addict) and im substituting cutting for tha pills

but im still cutting i keep getting the urge i dont know why im doing it i just like it alot i know its painful but i do it anyway

could it be possible im doing it as cry for help

you know kinda subconsiously i want someone to care and be concerned?

but even if thats the case and i know what the problem is why am i still doing it? im so confused lol

keep talking to your therapist about it, maybe even start talking to friends and family about it and about what is going on in your life. talk about your old addiction and bring it out in the open, bring your cutting out in the open, it might just help. once you start talking about it, the more you will probably learn about why you are doing it. and you are still doing it, because you need something like you said to replace the pills. why dont you try this, it might sound stupid, but it might just help you out a lot, especially about why you are still doing it--write down why you want to do it and why you dont. then see which is longer and see if the reasons why you do is better then why you dont!!! and yes it is a cry for help, but you already know that and you are already getting help, but is there someone that you really want to help you or notice you???? if you really want someone to care, i will, i am concerned and i would also like to know why you do it too because i am studying to be a psychologist. if you need to just vent or talk, email me, please i am here for you and will do my best to help you through this.

and you are probably still doing this because you havent found out the real problem--you really dont know whats going on inside your head. sit down and think about everything, why you do it, what happened in your life that you had the addiction to benzo, why you feel you need to be addicted to something, etc. ask yourself all the stupid questions, it sounds stupid, but at least you will know yourself better and then you can help yourself out and even help your therapist out because you will be more open and understanding of what going on in your head!! good luck and tomorrow instead of cutting yourself, make a funny face at someone!!!