Worst memory or pain that you have yet to let go of?!

Worst memory or pain that you have yet to let go of?

What have you experienced in your life that caused you such horrible pain and have yet to get past the pain {emotional} or {physical}? If you'd like to also share what you would have preferred happen instead or what you would do now to help heal your pain.

So many traumas in my life I am not sure I'd even know where to begin. The worst that still brings nightmares and pain is my dad molesting me and me begging him to stop and he wouldn't, I asked my mom, grandmother, uncles, aunts to help and no one helped (my dad is a big time drug dealer so he is pretty powerful) so that might have been why a few of the ones I asked for help didn't help. But the slap in the face was my mom, I pleaded with her to leave him or protect me and she didn't even try instead she beat me (for lying) and even though she caught him she still went on to have 2 more kids with him. The pain and anger I feel about that is so much, the betrayal, injustice, and senselessness of it all brings me to tears. my mom was his partner so she was just as powerful yet she stood by and allowed this pedophile to keep hurting her daughter (I am ashamed to be their daughter) It causes so many emotions in me, I hate my f**ken parents. How could you screw a man knowing he is molesting your daughter how f**ken sick do you have to be, what the f*ck can you tell yourself to make it OK selfish immoral pair the 2 of them! I wish I could have protected myself and if I could change a few things I would change my fear of my dads threats (he threatened to kill me if I didn't let him, if I screamed, or told) and I would have called the police or caused some serious damage to his privates so he’d never hurt me or anyone else ever again. These people damaged me so much but I got some kick *** counseling and therapy and I am better now and continuing to get better daily (one day at a time), but it still angers me. They say the best revenge is being happy and successful; I'm successful and working on being happy. I'll get there. Only shared this much in hopes that if you are in a similar situation or know someone that is you HELP or get help don’t let any more lives get f**ked up because of sick *** pedophiles. And if you’re a f**ken pedophile I hope God punishes you daily and you rot in hell you sick bastards (same goes for those that allow these sick people to continue by standing by and doing nothing)!